The first time I ever confessed to a guy happened 3 years ago. I told him I loved him and I was sorry. Surprisingly, he took it really well and listened to me and let me just pour my heart out. I asked him to reject me, for me to be able to move on from my first love. But then he told me he didn't want to stop being friends. I told him no, because it was my first love and I didn't have a lot of experience with love, I just couldn't stay friends with him.
I admired him for trying to reach out and keep the friendship intact but I pushed him away because it just hurt so much to have put my heart out on the open (which I rarely do) and not get results. I would be lying if I said I didn't blame him. I know that's wrong but I was young and so very stupid.
He danced with me to the last dance at prom that year, we didn't say a word and I just kept on crying. He didn't say anything and just finished the song with me still crying. He said he was sorry and I felt so hurt to have made him feel guilty.
The following year we didn't talk at all, just glances.
A few months after, we didn't even look at each other.
I reached out to him again because I really needed the closure. Thanks to my friend, who encouraged me and told me he had my back, I was actually able to talk to him normally again for about a week.
But then the guy I liked told my friend that I was becoming a burden to him with my feelings and insecurity.
I just feel lost now. How can another person make me feel this way? it's not fair.
I still do love him.
And I still am sorry for it.

JUST WANTED TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST WHEW
my friends just keep telling me to get over it and it just hasn't really helped

i guess i thought posting it here would be the equivalent of screaming into a void lmfao

thanks for hearing me out!

I was kind of in this guy's shoes. A girl had told me how in love with me she was with me. I was shocked. I told her I couldn't return that love, but that I still wanted to be friends because I do care about her. We stopped talking for a bit, she ended up messaging me again, telling me how much she loved me. Sometimes it was a drunk call, sometimes she just felt lonely. She was becoming a quite a burden. I didn't have the heart to tell her so. I just want her to get over me, because I just don't see why she even fell for me anyways. She deserves a lot better.

Hopefully that gave you a little perspective? I don't if I helped any, but you should really try to move on. Hope all goes well.

As I've told my friends, you can be sad, happy, angry, lonely, or what ever all you want,but just don't get stuck in one spot or one point in time. Life keeps moving on whether you are or not. People keep living there lives, and sadly people also keep losing their lives too. So don't get stuck.

Anyways, have a good day... or night!

I know that feel. All I can tell you is try to move forward and try to find someone else. In my case my best friend went out with my crush and after few months I asked her out to prom and got rejected, she said she doesn't want to date atm. Few days lagter I saw he with another guy. It made me feel horrible. All I can say is try to move on somehow

I don't know but I dream that am single for the rest of my life and it's good no one have a crush on me hehe just living my dreams. Ohh sorry just a Random thought