I've dated a girl for several years off and on, i do love her but shes turned my life into a senseless cesspool of hate of my self. Making me believe ill never amount to anything and that life would be better without me in it, if it wasnt for her. She had me fall in love with her, her family, and her two kids who currently call me daddy. Now these kids arent mine but i take care of them as if they were. I dont want to anymore, they cause more pain then happiness because of the memories, and now shes pregnant AGAIN with another guys kid AGAIN. and i have this feeling when he bails like the rest she'll come running back like always, but this time i dont want to accept her, or let myself take her back. I wanna move on! I wanna do things i used to do anbd i loved to do. Please any info or advice helps. Love you All!

Judging by your situation, you should really move on and ignore her. Do be sensible if you do have any unsettled responsibilities. Now, just be yourself and enjoy what you do. Take a break from people and enjoy yourselves. Maybe one day you could come back to love and start anew. I honestly don't have such experiences so I'll pass sharing any. So good luck and have a great life ahead.