October 17, 2017
I decided to take a hit from my pen today and so homework. I was just doing my essay trying to figure about what I'm gonna write about then be finished with it. I wanted to try it out if I could matriculate more words and remember things better. Once doing so I got a message from D....r asking me to hang out. I was like sure but I'm probably gonna do my homework in your room. And he said okay now come over. Not knowing better I went to his room thinking he's not gonna do shit to me. So I went there and he said he was gonna eat some edibles and smoke a cigarette and he left for a long time. I did my homework while he was out and I was getting more into it. Once he came back, he noticed I was still there. I asked him why were you gone for so long I thought you wanted to hang out. He said he did but he also wants a kiss first. Then he took put a donut out the shelf of the window. I asked him if I could have the donut, while I grabbed it. He then replied with ill give you it unless you could get a kiss so I just put the donut down. He looked at me and said fine you can have the donut but I am still getting that kiss regardless. I told him I can't kiss him cuz I have white spots on my tonsils. I then ate the donut and went back to my studies. Later he came back and said oh your still awake? And I said yes I am I was wondering where you were? He claimed that he was at a friend's dorm and I said fine I'm gonna go. I said okay. I started to stretch and he suddenly grabbed my ass i asked him why was he doing that. He said something like because you're really attractive. He told me once he comes back from somewhere and I'm still there he'll think I want to fuck. I said I'll get all my things. I packed my pages slowly I did t know how long I took and he came back and stood at the door scaring him. He asked me to grind on him so I said I was unsure at first and then said yes. Then he took off his pants and asked me he could take off mine so I did and and we were grinding. He kept asking Me if he could wear a condom to have sex and I said no. I don't know what I was thinking then. And he started to grind on me. I didn't know he took my underwear down because he put my head on the bed. He then started rub his dick against my clit. I didn't really notice anything because I was unaware and feeling high. I didn't know what the sensation was but it felt really weird, so I just went along with. Until he grabbed his penis and pushed it inside a little and I stop up and said no he said he wasn't going to put it in. And then he told me to bent over again. The then did it a second time but this time there was penetration. So I screamed no , and told him to stop. He then asked me if he could do a little longer and I said no. A few seconds past and he stopped, I looked at him in an expression of horror. I just realized what he had done. It just didn't go through my mind at the moment until after. I realized what I've done letting myself going into his room when he asked me to come. He knew I have a boyfriend so why did he try? Why did I let this happen to myself? It should be on me. I was aware of it but I didn't really have that much control of my body or mind. I don't know what to think about this. It's partially my fault. I feel like I cheated on him.

This is actually stupid, so stupid that it could almost be a scene from a high school hentai manga or something.
Hopefully it is just a scene from a high school hentai manga, because if it wasn't, it only meant that you're incredibly retarded.
I still can't believe what I just read.
Honestly, you literally invited that guy to "rape" you, it's not just partially your fault, it is absolutely your fault that it happened in the end.
You shouldn't worry about how to tell your boyfriend that you got "raped", you should rather worry about how to confess the fact that you cheated on him.

Still I hope you're just kidding, for I can't believe that such a stupid person like you actually exists.

>>2 Good point.

>>1 Ignoring Chronos's point. You said you were high and didnt really knew what you were doing right? Do you think you were drugged? Or something like that. If it was planned by that guy, then yes rape and partially your fault. But if not, and you just consider yourself to be high but actually youre just horny too. Then I'm sorry its not rape and its your fault. That guy cant resist so it is not his fault. And yes you cheated on your boyfriend.

I don't know which one is the truth, so think for yourself and act accordingly. Better tell your boyfriend asap.

>>3 The donut could have been drugged :o

>>4 Sounds funny but maybe? What esle can make her "high" at that point? She is doing homework normally.

Or like I said, she is just as horny as that guy.

I still am confused, even if I was heavily drunk, which impairs you more than being high, I would not agree to have someone grind on me with clothes on. I am with someone and I love them very much.

I get you were impaired, but why did you agree to the sexual stuff in the first place? You might not really like your boyfriend as much as you thought, since you did agree to do sexual things with another.

First mistake was agreeing to hang out with him and not with others and him. Second was noticing he was alone and you continued to stay. Next mistake was still sticking around after him saying he wants to kiss you, yet you didn't reply you have a boyfriend? Next was that you agreed to grind. Next was that you agreed to get undressed. Next was going along with obvious foreplay. Then you finally say no?

Yet this seems almost made up, since it lacks the trauma factor and went almost too much in detail of the sexual acts. I know if I was forced to do that I wouldn't be able to go into that much detail about it right after it happened.

What is you just did it because of impulse, you're mind doesn't know what's going on but your body just does whatever. It's like you mind can't cant control what your doing.

First off I still don't know if this is legit, as most sexual assault victims can't even say what just happened to them. You used specific sexualized words for the sexual acts, yet victims struggle to let out general words of what happened. That is why there is so much support for sexual assault.

If this really did happen and you feel horrified and defiled go see the police or a sexual assault service.

From my own experiences of being impaired, drunk, I still think of my girlfriend. Yet for some reason when you were impaired you didn't? You used an excuse of being sick, and not saying you are with someone, of why they couldn't kiss you. You also agreed to start undressing in front of them after agreeing to grind on them, but didn't think/say anything about your boyfriend?

From this it tells me you either like this person more than your boyfriend, or you don't have much feelings for your boyfriend.

Sexual impulses are easy to deal with if you love someone. They always cross you're mind if you love them.

Being high is not as impairing as being drunk either, you have more cognitive function.

I guess I'm a bit sour as someone kind of did the same to me. They didn't mention once they are with someone and I confessed to them. We eventually hung out and one thing led to another, and then in the morning they tell me they have a boyfriend. They had many opportunities to tell me that before anything happened.

>>9 This.

>>8 Honestly, if you're only hormone-driven, you're rather an animal than a human, you know?
I honestly feel pity for your boyfriend, since his girlfriend is a little bitch.
The fact alone that you got undressed in front of another guy was already kind of a "cheat".
Come on, you have a brain, why didn't you use it?

Anyways, I still disbelieve everything you wrote.

#shitthread

I hope you don't write your essays like this post, because that was painful to read. Regardless, If this is real (which I doubt it is), just suck it up and admit you wanted to fuck him.

>>8 I agree with everyone esle that its either youre joking or you are literally just horny. But if not, by any chance, then I'm sorry to hear your pain and you should either report a rape case or clarify with your boyfriend. Nonetheless, as always, dont do anything stupid and continue living. Maybe, take this as a lesson and be wiser.

This really is a roller coaster of events, you feel both violated and guilty... The initial problem is that you went to another guys room to “study” and it doesn’t take a detective to realize more was going to go on, if you wanted to seriously consider studies you wouldn’t have gone at all, you wanted to spend time with this guy (first act of betrayal) then you decided that you can get high and study (ok come on, if you get high you never actually cared about school) then when he says that you wanted to fuck that should have been you warning to get out, but you agreed to grind (second act of betrayal) then with the pace that was going you both had your underwear off (third act of betrayal) and then he penetrated, but you didn’t scream for help (in a dorm no less) you politely told him to stop (fourth act of betrayal) and that’s betrayal because if you honestly didn’t want that you would have screamed, or got out of there sooner, the only reason you feel guilty is because you enjoyed it, you enjoyed going behind his back and doing that.

That’s my opinion of the matter, cause if it had been reversed and a girl wanted to fuck a guy, no one would have batted an eye, but you got yourself into that situation and now you’re going to have to live with your mistakes, best to come clean and rip that bandaid off now, or you could not post a completely false story on this website and waste my time. So whether this is a true story or not, you’re still in the wrong

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