>>4 Journals used to be a good way to keep myself in check, but now my thoughts are often all over the place. Mainly because I'm so free, I end up thinking of what to do instead of doing what I want to do (Tbh idk how to explain this properly).
The thing is I'm always focused and invested when I'm working because work keeps coming in, and I'm more than happy to complete projects and move on to newer ones. It's a small job but it's definitely something I have interest in. The problem is when I bring that interest out of work context, I can't seem to get anything to work. It's quite tough because I know i could further myself but I'm stopping that from happening.
Anyways, my solution was to force myself to commit to what I plan to do by either going to classes or events and maybe volunteering. However, as much as I'd love to pursue my interest, I feel like pursuing it in my free time caused me some distress and I felt like I need to find something new.
But I'm glad you've mentioned quantum mechanics, I've only watched some talks and lectures because they were available. And since you've reminded me I might go back to watching some. Thks.
Ps I can't even finish watching the movies or games I want to watch or play and it kinda sucks. It wasnt like that last time:\