it's been three months that we are apart. sometimes i hate you for leaving me but most of the times i miss you so dearly that I fall in love with you again and again. not a single day i haven't thought about you. i guess you stuck in my unconscious mind that i can't control it. i want to forget you and sometimes i get scared that i will forget you. i loved you so much and i don't understand why i am the only one who is standing in our relationship till the end. and it hurts to know how easily you gave up on me. i still remember all those promises you made with me. i believed you when you said you ll never leave me and you ll force me to love you if i ever went to to wrong direction. i was happy that i found someone who loves me and wants me as much as i want. but i guess it was just a lie or you just promised me when our world was all beautiful and sunshine. but you gave up on me so easily when the real time came to prove all your promises. i don't even know what i am doing rn. all those dreams and plans that i made with you and my future where i included you, it is blank right now. moment you left, i am lost. i know i can't force you to love me and i don't want to force you. i want you to be happy but at a same time i want you to know how much you mean to me. i just can't move on this easily. i just can't let you go from this heart as easily as you left me. i wish you know, you are my world and my only one queen.