My friend "A," is worried about me stabbing myself with a pencil even though i reassure her i'm fine and it doesn't hurt. She texted me 2 options: either I stop stabbing myself and she will talk to me, or I keep stabbing myself and she doesn't talk to me. I NEED to stab myself, it's a way I get rid of some of my built up anger, I have a friend "SE," I almost punched him really hard the other day, He didn't do anything wrong, I just really needed to punch something, so after I left his house I punched myself all over. I met the two girls who ruined my life, i could've killed them right on the spot, I don't know why I didn't. Those girls spread lies about me, they said I wanted to have sex with a girl who I didn't even know, turns out she popular. This all happened in 2nd grade, I didn't even know what sex was. I got beat up, made fun of, etc. etc. I literally had 0 friends, I was the "smartass," I was doing 4th grade math in 2nd grade. I was despised after those TWO MOTHERFUCKING CUNT ASS BITCHES SHOWED UP. Before they showed up, I was liked by all, I had so many friends. I want to let out my anger, but I want to do so without hurting anybody. My email is: ArnavG.Dollars@gmail.com Please contact me there/

Im not exactly good with advice but id advice getting a stress ball or a punch bag of some sort, please try to avoid injuring yourself.