I need advice, alot of things are falling apart for me rn. Every time i make a group of friends it works out for a while, maybe half a year. But i start to see these people as objects. I dont know why but i get manipulative and i try to control everything because i feel better when im in control. But then i lose them. Ive already lost one this year, im a freshmen. Im not exactly sure what to do to actually prevent this, it just happens.

Hey.
The good news is that you know what is the problem and you want to solve it.
I think you should ask those friends to warn you if you turn out like this, and also you need to be aware that you are very lucky to have them. If you keep thinking about this you will be able to prevent this I guess. Let us know how it works out :)
Katyusha.