I don't know..I feel so scared and angry. I don't want to see anyone, I want to cry, I want to let it all out. I don't know what's wrong with me, I can't bring myself to let anyone comfort me. I lost so much friends and I miss them, it's such an irritating feeling. I want to lock myself up and sleep forever. It hurts so much, even if it's just a little. I keep telling myself that I need no one, but I want my old friends back, I want to stop being judged for not having social skills, I want my brother gone. I feel like everyone tries to provoke me, but when I argue back, they shut me down, the adults around me thinks they're so respectful and that even kids doesn't have negative emotions. They like to see me break down just to hope that I'll suppress my feelings. When I looked for my friends, they left me for being an awful prick and another for not getting out of my bubble. I wish life had a checkpoint. I wish I didn't look like this, act like this, dress like this, or face my current friends. I get irritated at everyone, and I guess I deserve being left out because I was such a terrible person. These feelings are so bitter and it hurts so much. My family says it hormones, my friends doesn't understand, I feel so tormented, insecure, and provoked. Is anyone there to help? Maybe it's just me.

Hey, I get this more than anyone. Whenever I stop pretending to be someone else, they leave me and tell me things that make me want to... well yeah. Remember that you can cry, it's okay to come home and just cry in your room. From personal experience, I usually feel better after crying. If your friends don't like you because of how you look, then they are NOT your real friends. I know that me saying that won't work, but once you wrap your head around it, it helps, a little. It doesn't change the fact that when you look into a mirror, you compare yourself to others. Trust me I tried and sometimes you just need a break from friends. Not forever, but once you feel up to it. Another way I might be able to help is to surround yourself with personal hobbies. Just you and whatever you're doing that keeps your mind off of who you are. Reading helps you forget who you are and live the lives of others. Art helps you remember to try and try again. Exercise helps you feel accomplished. Sometimes, just sleeping helps you relax and join a whole 'nother world. I hope this helped.

It isn't you, there are people out there willing to help, that is why we are here. First if you need to cry then do so, there is nothing wrong with that and that we are all humans so it is natural to, nothing good will come to holding it in. I always tried my hardest to hold my tears back because i knew i had to be strong and not give in, it is up to you whether you let it all out or not but just remember to not give in, don't lose hope and keep pushing. No matter how bad it seems there is always a shine of light, just keep fighting because even if it seems that the chances are slim that there is a chance even if it is slim so hold on to that. I as well kept my problems to myself and even when i did people thought it was weird or didn't know what to do but you know yourself the best so don't let others tell you what to do to solve certain problems. We lose and gain friends and if we can't come in contact with our old ones just remember the memories you made with them because that is something we keep forever. Sleeping will help, when you wake up the next day, take a deep breath and focus on yourself and your life and not others around you trying to bring you down. When people try to bring you down, ignore them trust me but instead of taking in the negativity turn it into positive and better yourself and prove them wrong. we are born with different looks but thats what makes us who we are and we must feel proud to be who we are no matter what others say, it isnt what is on the outside but inside. Stay strong

Look. I get it 100%. I am honestly in a pretty similar boat. I wish I could explain and let you know the details, but sadly, a promise I made is preventing me from doing so. That and many, many secrets. If you need someone to vent to, just listen, or talk with, email me.
niggrummessor@gmail.com

Don't try anything stupid, like kys-ing. Talk to teachers, they may be able to relate and help you. If you need more help, my email is arnavgupta1738@gmail.com

hey! check out some suicide hotlines or support groups, get in touch with a therapist or school consular, or find someone you can talk to. Try taking breaks, if things are too overwhelming, try to take a walk outside, if you have a pet spend some time with them, its important to have someone to talk to, i know the world seems shit rn but !! you can do this, try talking to someone,anyone, if you really dont have anyone we are here. life is always difficult, but having others to help carry some weight really helps. Your feelings are valid, but it wont always feel like this. If it does, try seeking a therapist, someone you can talk to. i want you to know you are loved by someone and we can get through difficult situations!