I hear voices in my head all hours of the day. I can't even remember when I started hearing them. I have visions when I'm both awake and asleep that involve me brutally murdering any person who has ever wronged me. I laugh at the stupidest things. Not that goofy laugh. More of a psychotic, evil, creepy, crooked laugh. Think the Joker.

I feel like one of these days I'm just going to snap and go on a murder spree. Wouldn't that be fun? Sure, I could get caught but I think it'd be worth it. Oh, the thrill of trying to elude the cops! Hahahaha!

Every day I become more and more...insane, I guess. I'm losing touch with who I used to be. A completely different personality is forming. I want to hate it but it feels good. I have no more empathy for my fellow man. Just...bloodlust.

Your dude, N. Sanity.

I would totally say "no see a therapist" but honestly I'd chop people to bits with you lmao

You should seek help. Frustration about wrongdoing is understandable, but killing people takes away their chance to right their wrongs. I have the urge to kill someone, or the fantasy to outsmart the cops aswell sometimes, but I´m always kind of glad when it´s gone... that´s what video games are for anyways, to play out our fantasies without harming anyone. But seriously: see a therapist.

>>1
Look, N., as someone who used to be in your position and knew tons of others like you and me, just stop.
It's not a real problem.
If it was, you'd have been on meds and had people take you away already and wouldn't be on here posting about it.

You're just trying to get attention, and a much better less bridge-burning way is just getting good at something and finding friends.
Even if you need to just go somewhere and hang out with people regularly, do it.
I found getting a job helped me a ton, and the money sweetened the deal even more.

You don't need help. You have all the keys in your own hands.
And whatever you do, just take a break from anime and edgy music like MCR for a little while.
Try classical or something (I recommend Dmitri Shostokavitch's 2nd)

One other thing.
Try keeping up with the news.

>>1 Murder is an extremely bad idea, however entertaining it may be however >>4 is correct, you should probably take a break from anime and calm down some. Now from a more analytical stand point you'd be to reckless and ultimately end up either killing yourself or getting killed in the process. I mind you this is coming from a sociopath.

As far as the blood lust goes, i'd recommend finding something that calms you. For an instance when I really want to kill someone me and my friends go outback with kendo sticks and beat the living daylights out of each other. The combat then seems to calm me.

So basically to wrap this rant up, find a hobby aside from anime, hang out with friends, and don't do anything that can endanger those around you.

hey. i need some help?

>>5
Eclipse, if you don't mind letting me tack some things on, I'd like to point out that a lot of idiots tend to claim "ooohhhj, look at me, I want to kill people" and then they do something stupid (kill someone accidentally or get close to it) and feel awful about it, witness someone being hurt and feel terrible about it, or join the military and feel REALLY bad about it.

Anyone who has truly seen or actually had to hurt someone, no matter how steeled they think their nerves are, no matter what kind of mental shit they claim to have, short of actually being a 100% bonafide psychopath, will ever actually kill someone or even hurt someone without feeling awful.

There are cases where someone who shot a burglar killed themselves because of guilt.

Stupid shit just comes along with being a teenager. I get it.
But oftentimes the stupid shit that comes with being a teenager is because a level head is nowhere to be found except from people who you don't really want to listen to.

Also, to add to the "helps with this shit" list.
Paintball.
Old music (try Frank Sinatra; the chicks love him and he's actually good if you give him a try)
Fixing old stuff (I find cameras to be fun, as well as anything you can convince people to let you work on: this also helps bring in cash for other hobbies)
Running/Jogging/Walking nightly.
And lastly, find a board.
No, not this one. This one can be fun, but sadly seems to be populated with a shitload of edgelords that won't do much to help with your problem.
Just check out the faces of the dollars thread over on our random.
There are some normal people but they're sadly few and far between compared to the ones that would make for an excellent cringe thread on a certain Laotian sock puppetry forum we all know and love.

Please note I'm NOT telling you to leave.
Just to branch out.
I'm just trying to help someone not fuck up like I did and lose lots of Irene's for nothing. And trust me. You have friends wether you know it or not.