1 Name: RoseCandy : 2017-04-29 03:59 ID:aEYTg05E [Del]
(Disclaimer: I swear a lot) My life is nothing but dealing with my parents fighting over stupid, tiny shit. I'm 13, but I'm in the 10th grade (I shit you not), I'm far more mature than most 12-15 year olds that I know, and I'm obviously a female going through puberty, so I'm getting into the whole dating thing. Only thing is, the guys I usually go after are far older than I am. Not old enough to get arrested, but old enough to get funny looks. I still talk to my ex boyfriend (rather not say his current age), and I'm honestly struggling a lot with this. I absolutely love him more than anything but he is doing so much for his family right now, he had to drop out of highschool to stay home. He doesn't seem to want a relationship anymore, even though he knows I feel differently.. It's hard to be so in love with someone who is right there. Someone who used to be there for you through absolutely everything. I can't talk to him as openly as I used to.. My parents are sending me up North so I don't have to be around while my 66 year old father undergoes surgery (he has prostate cancer). My mother is more irritable than ever, I'm beginning to act out a lot (talking back, arguing, being rude when I don't exact need to be). I have long history with self harm and I've been pretty suicidal (I have Major Depressive Disorder), I've had problems accepting myself, and it's just so, so much. I didn't write nearly as much as I wanted, but feel free to ask anything below. Please no hate, that's not gonna help me.
4 Name: RoseCandy : 2017-04-29 18:24 ID:aEYTg05E [Del]
I've gone to several therapists, and I've tried to move on. I just can't. He's impacted my life so much and I have no reason to not still be stupidly in love with him.. He went out of his way to stop talking to me completely because he thought I deserved to forget about him..
