Last wensday my uncle killed himself with a 45. We were really close. I have learned a lot through this experience. But i find myself sad all the time. One of the things i have learned is that even if you think you have lost everything there are still people that care. The reprocushions are terrible dont put loved ones and friends through tjat kind of pain.

That kind of stuff can really be hard to digest. It's hard to think what would push someone that far. Compassion from your family is great, compassion for your uncle is even greater. I'm sure you meant a lot to your uncle.