I'm never good enough for my family. I can never ever live up to their standards. They just don't understand me, and I can never connect to them. I've been in a sorta inner deep depression. It's hard for me to explain, I just know I'm in a depression but I don't ever show it on the outside. It's just easier to keep it in, but now I'm at my limit. I feel finished. I can't keep fighting. I'm just done. They've never been supportive, and they only see the bad qualities in me. I can never tell them about my depression or the reasons behind my downfalls because they're nothing but "my excuses." It's just...hard. My life is difficult. I try my best, I try to keep my grades up, I give up certain things that I want, but I'm the only one dying here. I'm meant to be nothing but a copy of my siblings to them. I'm nothing but compared to how smart my sister is or how I'm not as reliable as my brother. It's uhhh...just complete shit to be honest.

Hey. I kinda understand how you feel. I don't know exactly where you are in your life, but I can tell you I have felt the same. I, too, didn't get good grades. I personally don't know how I even passed middle school, let alone high school. But the world extends far beyond this world of education. What matters is that you find a place. It could be in another country or even here online. Heck, a good conversation is good enough for me.

I understand how you feel. I have a really successful brother; he has good looks, good grades, popular, talented, everything I'm not. Because of that I always felt pressured that I needed to be better, skinnier, smarter, prettier, taller, more social. But know that you are perfect the way you are and at least, at least I believe in you. Try you're best, you can hang in there. Stay strong.

Thank you. I truly appreciate this.
Unfortunately, it only got worse, and I'm tired of fighting.

I'm sorry.

Wait your saying that your done fighting don't be a fool just don't be try to become some one else,be yourself, the world is much bigger than you think and all you have to do is try to become you and search what's make your heart happy i think you will find a purpose if you search and fight to find for it.

OMG I feel the exact same way Nai . My siblings are super smart, mature, innocent and really pretty and I am literally the worst mistake in this family. I feel BAD for my parents they try to support me but I only bring shame to them. HOWEVER, DON'T GIVE UP MAI ..many MANY times I just felt like stop fighting and ending everything but seriously we are not really in a bad situation compared to people who doesn't even a house or a family to turn to. LETS NOT STOP FIGHTING. Life is meant to be like this. VERY DAMN UNFAIR. WE JUST HAVE TO KEEEEEEEEEEEEP FIGHTING until we get that freedom/happiness's and I feel like it's not that far away from us. Just remember there are people out there who doesn't even know ready to support you :D KEEP IT UP NAI !! GOT your back :D