Basically what I mean is...I've started to become self-conscious about the way I look and the way I act. In high school (I'd say beginning of sophomore year), I was starting to lose some weight because of the strength/fitness classes I was taking. I felt so proud of myself because I was able to notice the progress I was making. I had even begun to eat healthy, or at least eat as little of junk food as possible.

Then...things changed after high school..

Honestly I guess you could say this started happening in the beginning of my senior year. I had started to become more "emotional". I was starting to have some sort of "identity crisis". I basically had no idea what kind of person I was anymore. Was I silly and a prankster, calm and friendly, or serious and quiet? I would find myself being so many different personalities that I had no idea which one was my TRUE personality.

After that, my urge to be fit began to fade away.

I stopped choosing the fitness classes and would just end up bouncing a basketball during PE because I was too caught up in my personality switch to actually try to play. I stopped getting the healthy lunch and instead ate what everyone else did. I would even go across campus after school, where there would be a mini mart that had a bunch of chips and sweets. I ended up becoming what I never wanted to go back to being...a big fat joke (I have nothing against fat people btw, but I was never happy being fat in middle school and now).

Now I'm done with high school...and now I'm lost.

I don't have to worry about going to that mini mart, but I don't even know where to begin now. I'm even bigger than I was in middle school and I still have troubles with my personality switch. I'm slowly starting to eat healthy again, but when all you've eaten is garbage for the past year, it's hard to keep at it. I know this isn't a counseling board, but...what happened to me...and where do I even begin to become the person I was proud of being again?

Hello Zhane,

I don't know what happened to you. But I can help you with your problem. It's simple: make it progressive. Set yourself a goal and stick to it. Doesn't have to be a big one. An example would be your goal being eating fast-food only once a week. Then from there to every tword weeks, to every month, to every few months, etc until you get rid of your fast-food eating habits. Same thing with getting back in shape. Start with something small. Taking walks for example. You can start with 5000 steps a day, then work your way up to 10000, or more. You also need to get used to the idea that it's going to take some time, but it's worth it. Keep sething yourself goals and eventually you'll be proud of yourself for reaching them.

A good way to make sure you'll actually do it, and not just think about it, is to go to the people you care about and who care about you and to tell them about your project. They'll be happy to help you.

I hope I helped, here's my email if you want to talk about your projects

Kuromu.dollars@gmail.com