Senior year of high school has given me the room to reflect, so here I am. A lot of good things, but of course, I am here to vent what the bad things were. I really just want to get them out of the way. Sit back, because this will be a long post full of festering feelings from my school career (hope you liked that alliteration).
I go to a small, not-well-funded school. Thus, everyone knows everyone, and more often than not you end up in with the same people in your classes. Furthermore, our school depended on academic success if they wanted to get any funding, but this dependence typically fell on the same group of 10-15 students, me included. I had mostly honors and AP classes and my teachers were pretty candid about the administration. It was pretty disheartening to hear of all the dumb stuff that the teachers would be forced to teach.
And let me make this clear- I enjoy school. I have not been stuck in an aimless spiral towards perfection, but I genuinely enjoy learning new things and trying to get as good as grades as possible.
But it has been to my disadvantage that people have always tried taking advantage of that aspect of me. Whenever there's a group project, everyone throws in the towel almost immediately, expecting me to do all the work. And I do, because I love doing projects and I love all the possibilities. But then I sit back, admire a job well done, and get a little irritated when I see my group mates receive the same credit and praise for something that they didn't do at all.
The same people that I may carry along for an assignment or help out on homework are just as quick to turn on me in their frustration. "I don't know the answer! I'm not as smart as you!", "Can't you just TELL me the answer? It's not like your grade needs any help!", "Yeah, so what if my grades aren't as good as yours? At least I have a life.".... and so on.

I am grateful that I am in honors and AP classes and get to work with people who actually want to be in class, but sometimes the same stuff comes up even there. And now I'm taking some college classes, and this stuff STILL happens. I'm getting so irritated with all of this.
Why can't I be allowed to do well in school without having people shaming me for it or making me feel like a freakin chump? And this might sounds kind of whiny of me to say, but why do I always get shit for not being perfect in everything, while others get a pat on the head for getting a D instead of an F? I understand the whole concept of "expectations" and "raising the bar", and "some people have more difficult things going on in their lives", but there are times when I just want to ignore all that and be super selfish and force everyone to work harder.



anyway, that's all. Feel free to comment on your own school experience.

Lol do I know you?, I go to a small school about the size of what your talking about and we are on a College campus. I know two people who feel how you do I would tell you to ride it out but I'm in my senior year too and riding it out isn't working so well I feel your pain a bit cause I see what my friends go through everyday and it sucks cause I feel like there's nothing to change what's going on with you and others like you.

That would be pretty funny if we actually knew each other irl. Is your school mascot a horse?

Awe, sadly not I was actually hoping I knew you it would make for a interesting story

That would be very characteristic of the Dollars.