Hey there. I've been on and off here for a bit, I actually haven't talked to anyone from the Dollars in months. Basically I've just been like "whoa what the fuck am I" over that time, and figured I might just be androgynous or whatever and it makes a bit more sense than the 'female' I've been going by. I really hate my name, as I've made clear to myself through the years. (Feminine name of which I was ALSO bullied for).

I want to change my name to the people that know me, but I really have no idea what to go for. It's a scary change; I'll have to learn how to respond to a new name and maybe fix my legal shit. I want a quirky name that's more fitting than 'Mia' (I just gagged in my mouth a bit).

Not asking anyone to name me or whatever, but I just want some suggestions. I'm too anxious to ask my friends or family about names. Also, I want my name to be my own, and found by internet strangers. That makes it more intriguing.

Hey, Leena:) Haven't seen you on here in months:o. Welcome back :D. I always thought you were female, you really look the part. I don't think anyone could tell that you were going through that internal battle you just stated. Anyways... I didn't know your real name was Mia, huh. The only androgynous names I could think of right off the bat are "Sam" and "Alex," but maybe they're too common sounding for you if you want something unique, hmmm......................................................................................................................................................Oh! How about "Rudy" or "Dawn" or......hmmm..... "Jessie?"......mmmm.... you don't look like a 'Franky', but maybe that? These are all the ones I could think of in the moment...

Why does it matter that much? Its not like your name changes who you are.

A name is surprisingly important Akako :o I've always felt uncomfortable with myself when I was "Agnes". It's a bizarre feeling to feel like you're not "you" even though that's the "you" you've been your entire life. Finding a name that suited me felt like a step closer to being happy.
And Leena, I do hope you find a name that you're happy with <3

^w^ thanks for y'all's support.

>>2 Thank ya Tree. I never thought of Rudy before, and I considered Jessie before than sorta scratched it. Though that does prove that there are more names out there and it gives me hope for a name that isn't common for nonbinary folks like "Oliver" xD (no offense to anyone named Oliver, I just like to have a weird name). And the only reason why I'm so girly on the internet is because I let out my inner Japanese schoolgirl online. That probably won't change.

>>4 Thank you! All of my friends say that names don't matter and if I'm more masculine I don't have to have a guy name or a neutral name (I guess it's because they don't want me to change because then I would be changing myself to adapt to gender roles or something like that?). I disagree with that sentiment, simply due to how often Mia is given feminine connotations and people often get all 'smart' about my name and start making comments. Or once they figure out I'm a "girl" people start getting all dickish about it. I'd just rather have something fitting, you know?

/an update: I no longer feel this way and have become more confident about my identity on this front. I could go on and on about the patriarchy or my tragic backstory, but to be honest, I was just trying to find some reason to change myself in the ways I wanted to change. Neither presentation nor gender nor changing my name (despite how much I want to change it to something that's been given negative connotations) could change me. I only wanted an excuse to be confident and look hot in whatever clothes I wanted, even if it was associated with the more 'masculine'.

Though, that wasn't the way to go about it. I just wanted self-improvement, and I realized it was not my body but my personality that I felt uncomfortable with after a bit. It's okay to question, yet when you're me and always have to feign sureness about yourself out of pure reflex, it's not so easy. I've decided that I am happy with what I was given, and can do whatever I want as a female. Anyone who judges me for that can fuck themselves.