So i had a girlfriend for 2 months. Sometime in i started to act clingy and needed, i had some family issues going on that made me super depressed. I told her everything i don't like secrets or lies. Ive never once lied to her. I was like that for two weeks and on starting the third week she told me "I need to talk to you". I had a bad feeling and knew what it could be. She said we are better as friends, and we have two different ideas what a relationship should be. I can say honestly that she never told what she wanted in a relationship. I left and arrived back an hour later to get to know what lead up to it but i didn't get an answer, she more of ran away from me. For the first week i wanted nothing to do with her, i wanted to move on. After that week i came to a decision after thinking about it throughly i wanted to be with her. I wrote her two notes. The first note was an apology for the way i was acting for the week (i was severely depressed after the break up). The second note was about how i felt about her but it didn't include everything. I asked her two times that week to think about what i wrote, after that i left her alone. that was the first time i went to her house after the break up (i realize that wasn't the smartest move i could make). I then made the biggest mistake by going to her house a second time to apologize and give her about me constantly remembering about the note and to give her a plushy that i ordered back when we were dating (i wasn't a big fan of the game that the plushy was from plus it hurt to much to look at it.) Her uncle and her both saw me at the same time. Her uncle told me that i was making her feel uncomfortable. (That was not my intention, i never wanted to do anything that made her feel that way, but i did) i apologize to her about the insist while in a shock state because i realized i did something so wrong. After a day i tried to properly apologize for showing up at her house but the minute she saw me she ran away. I left her alone for the rest of the week. The Monday of i tried to show her that i was done trying for now by giving her a friendly smile and wave. On that day i got called down to and was told that she doesn't want any communication from me. (Since the break up i didn't once text her, i've only talked to her in person.) I haven't talk to her or approach her or anything really. So i know some of you on here will call me dumb or foolish but i know its love that i feel. I had a slight feel of it while dating her and it wasn't until i lost her that i realized what i had. Most of her friend that were my friends as well refuse to talk to me or even look at me. I guess i became the bad guy. Mostly all of them believe that it isn't love. But i have this feeling that i can't explain. It's like like a heart feeling or a gut feeling its something else, i can't explain it with words. She showed me a new side of me that i thought never existed. I felt like a better person with her. Sure i got annoyed at time with her but thats what i liked about her. I really do love her. If i needed to risk my life for her i would do it in an instant.

So id like some help on getting her back. If theres any questions please ask, if you think it'll help come up with a solution.
(thanks you everyone who reads this)

Look dude I say it's lust, but going to tell you what you want to hear. If you really love her like you say let her go. The difference between love and lust is list has you do crazy stuff that does not make sense,(like go to her house twice) but love is a smart intellectual feeling. And if you do love her be smart! Give her space like crazy!!! 3 months at least. And look if you can't do that then what you are feeling is definitely lust. Let your situation about your family know as soon as possible to people you know talk to her friends. She will get that stuff eventually. Don't try to get an oscar over the crap you say just make it nice short sweet and sad, in a oh well*sigh I'll let you carry on sorta deal. But remember avoid her! After that don't make the first move she will! Ok, and don't be like hey I missed you. No, you say hey how's it going. Not sorry, no apology at all!!!! Start off all over again be her friend, crack jokes, very mildly flirt, compliment her when she asks! Let her say maybe we should do this again. Don't be like oh ya definitely all quick! Say ok, but I need to know what type of relationship you are looking for, tell her I need to know your boundaries. I know most guys don't have these but set up some boundaries say you want to hang out first before you go actual dates, and when you do go on a date for the first time, make it a group date, and do not take her anywhere expensive or buy her expensive items. Keep things simple. I hope this helps.

I know it's not what you want to hear, but don't try to get her back. You can't make a person love you. Give her space, and if she loves you she'll come back. Don't talk about her with friend, don't look at her with sad eyes and stuff, ignore her. She'll probably become interested in you after some time if she still has feelings for you.

By the end of January it'll be three months since i spoken to her. The problem that i have is that i see her every day. I don't speak to her, i don't look at her, i try my dam hardest to pretend she not there. I don't even speak when we are near each other. I've found out that more people hate me now. Which i understand i done wrong. I can honestly say that i done things wrong. I've started to think more logically instead of the panic state i was in. My health however went down hill for some time because of my family business. In one month i went from decent to being hospitalized. Like i said before i tried to move on, like really try. But this is the person i want to be with, the person that i can see myself spending the rest of my life with because i'm not attracted to her physical but on who she is as a person. Let me give you some back on what type of person she from what I've experienced. She very very like super shy. She had a crush on me for the longest time and wanted to tell me but was waiting for me to make the first move. She's saving herself for marriage and i respect for that. I never once while dating her pushed myself onto her. She hold strong friendships with people and once sh hates you, you don't exists anymore. Because of my stupid attempts to get back with her, i've only made my situation worse. (this was before i stopped talking to her and kinda after learning she didn't want any communication from me). I've left her alone completely. I've also learned what i could do better if i got back together with her. I just wish she didn't she me as the bad guy now but as the guy she once had a crush on.

So like again anyone got any advice. Please.

The "Once she hatez you, you don't exist anymore" part is already a red flag to me, I wouldn't even try dating someone that can't forgive people that actually apologize, and then to treat them like they don't exist when they were friends sucks. In your case though, it's normal for someone to want to forget about their ex. It seems like you can't move on though without some sort of closure. If the relationship were to end on a happier note then maybe you could've gotten the closure you need. And yes, sometimes people need space... a lot of it. Last time my ex needed space, it took eight months for her to start talking to me again and she made the first move it wasn't me, but by then we decided to just stay friends, and yeah, that's what we did.

A wise man once said....
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