>>5 I don't wanna sound like a stickler, but with your belief of god loving them, wouldn't they just be closer to it?
Anyway, I'm not sure if you've already read this thread and decided on your next course of action, or if you just keep comin back to see if anyone else has their own two cents they wanna chip in, well here's mine: For starters, I gotta tell ya that if you're just startin high school, you need to know that everyone ya know your own age is still totally clueless on like 99 percent of their lives; their opinions don't mean shit. Secondly, confidence is SUPER helpful for just about everything, if ya don't have it, just fake it. I ain't sayin ya gotta be a dick or anythin, but for me, a confused look and a friendly smile with maybe a chuckle or just happily minding your own business is the friendliest way to tell someone to fuck off without actually sayin anything. You gotta understand that many people like to unite through a common hate for something, and that hate can just be because youre different. Being different ain't bad, and if you said that you were already a quiet person, just havin a smile while goin about your every day life can hide weakness, if you're like me, the weakness will just go away, and the confidence stays. Honestly the best advice I can give ya is comin from experience, I can tell ya not to fight it and to ignore (but don't be a dick/ breakdown) people who actively try to piss you off. As for killing yourself, it ain't a good idea, yeah you'll send a message of how much this meant to you, but understand that if it's the meds you want then you can get them, maybe not immediately, but it's not impossible, patients is key. Trans people in the main stream are still sorta new and most ain't to used to it or are gonna be more close minded when it effects them more (the case of your brother). I think you can easily handle this, you're still a tiny person, just enjoy life and take the opportunities when they inevitably come.