All I ever do is try to make people happy. And I always end up hurting the one person I care about the most. This is why I think I should die, because no matter what I do I always f**k something up. I can never do anything right, and I always end up hurting someone. I just want to give up. How can anyone say they even want me here if all I do is hurt people? N is the most important thing in the world to me. And I feel like I hurt him the most. The only reason I'm even here is because of him. I just want him to be happy... what a great job I'm doing of that, huh? I'm such an idiot. I just hope I don't keep screwing up. My life would be over without him. I don't think I could go on living if I lost him. He's the only thing that makes me happy. I wish he knew that.. I wish I was better at showing him how much I loved him.

Not all good intentions are received as such, as they can turn out to do more harm them good at times,

Also depends what you are trying to do?, and if you are pushing too hard to make them like you, that it self may end up driving them away from you then getting closer to them.

Life has it's ups and it downs, we don't know what's round the corner of each day, just try and enjoy the good moments as they come, and try to be at our best when they are bad and work through them even if there seems to be little hope at times, even asking for help is no shame.

The thing is, you've got to offer contrast. If you're always openly looking to help someone, it'll do more bad than good. Basically, you can be a kind person, without having to always show it. It might sound weird, but some people just like to complain about stuff, without really wanting anybody to help. So most of the time, it's better to just stay cool, stop worrying, and enjoy the moment. Then if someone goes out of their way to ask you for help, give it your all! And if you're ever very very very worried about someone, first ask them if they need any help, before doing anything. Also keep in mind that you can't do everything, and you aren't the world's "designated superhero" so in some cases, it's just good to redirect the person who's asking for help towards someone who can really help them. That might sometimes be more helpful than trying to do things all by yourself.
Also, if I were you, I wouldn't centre your life around one person. They can be important to you, but learn to enjoy other things, meet other people. That's what makes life more interesting, and worth living, as a whole.

BUT Since you're so keen to help people, you can practice within the Dollars community! Notably, you can give people advice. At best, you will effectively help them. At worst, they will ignore you.
If you've got more time on your hands, then you can complete a Dollars Mission!
Now go out there and be a great person 👍😎

I know how it feels to keep trying to help others and end up getting hurt in the end. It happens to me a lot. All I can say is hang in there, no matter how much it may hurt and always try to keep a smile on your face