Right now, I feel like things with my dad at home is driving me insane. Already I feel like I've been losing myself but now dealing with my dad and family at home is adding more fuel to the fire.

It's hard to explain my situation without going on and on, but right now my home feels really irritable. Everyone is complaining, lots of sighing and arguments, it's so negative I can barely take it.

And I mentioned my dad, I've been growing to dislike him over the years. To sum some of my experiences up, for two years he thought I was studying science and engineering and I worked for Apple, but I'm only studying graphic design and have never had a job. And another experience was he took me out on a trip for a few days as "a thank you for dealing with me as a father" and was drunk the entire time. From the moment he woke up to the moment he went to bed. Lost in the middle of an airport with your drunk father at the age of 16 is not fun. He never pays attention to me and spends more time watching T.V than even thinking of me. I must speak less than 10 sentences with him each week and I live with him for crying out loud! (I also just spent the past two days only eating potato chips because he only cares about football and didn't feel like buying food. My mom was at work the whole time so no one else could do anything.)

I want to move out really bad now, I can't take the negativity anymore. I feel like if I'm here much longer, I lose myself and never be able to catch up again. And I can't move out since I'm still in high school.

Can I get some encouraging words or something?? ;;;;;; Living in a irritable household has been getting hard and I kind of just need something to keep going. OTLLLLLLLLL

The world isn't as bad as you think.

Wow. Ok.
I realize that attempting to reconcile with your father is not the best idea after hearing of the events you have been through.
So far, due to running out of time for now, I could only think of one thing you could do.
You could probably go to some type of sleepover? Although it may sound a bit childish, it can give you a night's rest without any intervention with your father. ]

No offense to all that took offense though
Orz

You can always get a job and then move out. I know many people that moved out at a young age. They were under 18 too. The main problem with moving out is that a stable source of income is a must. This means usually getting a job, or 2. It can be done if you really want to.

Another is you can learn how to do more things, and not look for approval of your father. I really wish my dad left me alone more, since he hit me a lot. So I can't really offer much advice on connecting with a parent.

I don't think all there is in the house is potato chips, unless no one is eating at the house. I usually don't see that in poverty but rich households, as eating out is more expensive than making food. So you can learn how to cook more things too.

Also my parents wanted me to became the next genius engineer, and it ironically somewhat might happen. I dropped out of school, which I was only going due to pressure, but am back at it. I am doing it for me, not them. Do things more for you.

If you want to talk to him go sit with him next to the T.V. and strike up something about the game, or show, that he is watching. It seems like it isn't hard for you to stay to yourself if you wanted to instead.

But do what you want to do, not what others want you to do. I've seen so many people waste their life, money, and time by doing something their parents wanted them to do, not what they themselves really wanted to do.

Do you have any siblings? You might want them to try and help you by gaining your father's attention. You might also want to try to talk to your mom about this (I have a feeling that you told your mom about the situation), and have her talk to your father.

There's some different scenarios on this.
1. Either your father doesn't care about you (Ouch)
2. He's thinking of something that involves you, so he tries to protect you by distancing himself from you.

In either way, you have to find out whats wrong between you two. Although you don't like getting near your father, in the future, this might affect others (Like internal war between family members.