Ahaha, yeah, me again. I think maybe everyone is sick of me always creating long threads to bother people with my problems? Maybe. Well, this is the only place I can ask for help anyways, so here goes nothing.

If any of you actually remember my previous threads, which I doubt since I'm sure you've helped so many people in the Personal thread you've forgotten, in August I had a fight with a friend over a school project. It wasn't even worth any marks, but she lashed out at me and threatened on social media to blame me for our incomplete PowerPoint. I stopped being friends with her and have been ignoring her until now. I originally made 3 "friends" after 3 months of entering high school (middle school in most countries), but things started falling apart and now I'm left with only 1 friend in school, and 2 primary school friends who I don't hang out much with anymore. The problem is with this 1 friend. You see, I have depression and I've gone to the point of holding a knife against my heart, and if my mum didnt come back in time that day I would've killed myself. I've also found out a few months ago that my friend's parents have been physically abusing her, so I've tried my hardest to help her. But they didn't seem to stop. One day I couldn't take it anymore, because my family wasn't helping. I tried to tell my friend that "I have depression, and Ive had suicidal thoughts. Can you help me?" But instead, i got told off. She said "___, please. You don't know anything about what it's like to have depression. Stop acting like it. You have the happiest family in the world, so be grateful. Your suffering is nothing compared to mine, so suck it up."

Over the course of the next 3 months, I kept trying to tell her that I was suffering too. That my depression might not be as bad as her, and I wasn't being physically abused but I had depression due to my own share of family problems. Everytime, I kept getting told "My depression is way worse than yours. You wouldn't understand anything." Then, on Friday I finally snapped. I tried to tell her to listen to me, but she replied with the usual "I went through more than you. You don't know anything." Except she added "listen, we took a test on this. Do you know how high I scored? I scored a 74 on depression. You only scored a 52." Then I couldn't take it anymore and started yelling at her. "LISTEN, A TEST ON DEPRESSION DOESNT MEAN SHIT. IN THE TEST THEY ASKED IF WE TOOK DRUGS OR IF WE SMOKED. DOES THAT MEAN IF WE CLICKED YES WE WOULD HAVE DEPRESSION? AND HOW ABOUT *YOU* BE GRATEFUL FOR YOUR FAMILY? NOT EVERYONE CAN JUST CASUALLY WALK AROUND WITH $100 IN THEIR WALLET. NOT EVERYONE IS RICH ENOUGH TO FUCKING BUY UNDERTALE, SOLATOROBO AND OVERWATCH JUST FOR THEM TO STOP PLAYING IT AFTER 2 WEEKS. BE GRATEFUL FOR YOUR RICH FAMILY WHO BUYS YOU $400 WIRELESS HEADPHONES, A $1200 MACBOOK AND GAMES THAT COST $100!!"

After I said that she distanced herself from me. I don't know what to do now. I'm also starting to question if we were really friends. My mum told me to be cautious around her because of an incident with her parents. Lately I've also noticed that she doesn't seem to be as "innocent" as she looks. She "asks" me (more like forces) to accompany her every time she has to see a teacher ta lunch, and I end up not eating anything. But when I ask her to help with 1 small thing she finds an excuse. Then, she keeps annoying me about Homestuck, Undertale, OFF and some other things which I have no interest in. I always tell her politely that I don't want to hear about them because I simply don't care, and she says fine, but then she starts again after 5 minutes. Then, when I try to talk about Mystic Messenger (the one game that I play with my primary school friends), she completely ignores me and talks louder in an attempt to drown out my words. My yearly exams start tomorrow, but I'm too occupied by these thoughts to study, and my brain can't process the information at all. I really need to focus because my yearly science and geography tests are coming up but I can't with all these things happening...... please help.....

I think your friend is depressed and feels isololated and that nobody's there to really listen, I mean REALLY listen. Same with you. Sounds like you both need consolation.

Here's a video I felt like sharing. I don't know if you'll like it because it's from a religion's website, so it has a certain point of view already, right from the start. Either way I suggest watching it for the advice, I think it's interesting. Here: https://www.jw.org/en/bible-teachings/family/teenagers/whiteboard-animations/whats-a-real-friend/

I'm pretty sure after what you said she's feeling more useless probably thinking she is just something that needs to be bought material objects, a bother to her parents and everyone else. She just don't stop looking down or even listen to other people, apparently it would be hard to help her, saying empty words will just be pointless, but probably saying sorry would make it better
How about we copy Izaya, lead her to the rooftop let her choose between jumping or not, living or death, if she can't make a choice then taunt her if still she' won't move or speak pressure her. Possible results: if she says that she still want to live tell her that she should let you help her and that your her friend, if she jumps catch her neck tie and say that if she is certain about this: if yes pull her up she will ask you why you didn't let her fall say that even though you taunted and pressured her you want her to still live and also say for her to reconsider living I'll gladly help you, if no then pull her up and say " then let me help you"
This may seem psychotic because it is,were copying Izaya. This is a stupid stunt so this is a last resort. And beside if you tried to kill yourself she"ll probably do it to herself as well so it's better to risk it all for this final attempt if she just won't listen to you but if you can still reason with her do it
Any way she might say that it's psychotic while your in the roof top then pressure her if not taunt her tell her everything that depressed her,if she responds" yes those are depressing but I don't want to die I just want to overcome it then you"ll have to say " then let me help you listen to me I'm your friend, tell me everything let it all out.