I can't feel anything usually. I feel happy and excited sometimes, sure -when watching anime, playing games, being with friends. But those feeling fleet easily. On the other hand, I easily get pissed off -and I know I'm just being overly dramatic about the issue (ex. just earlier my father scolded me for watching anime on my laptop while eating, saying it's disrespectful to the food, when they're talking loudly and watching tv while eating as well - I wanted to turn off the tv and shout at them for being fucking hypocrites). I find it hard to calm down. I just locked myself up in the room trying to find ways to vent my anger or divert my attention (I tried to play games, watch anime, read manga, draw, write) but nothing works. Now I'm just crying for some stupid reason. I'm sorry for posting this kind of shit here, I don't know anywhere else.
And no, it's not really just lately, I've always been like this except it's becoming worse lately.

You come to the right place. We love you here. You sound like you arn't in a understanding and suportive house hold. Cure, get a life (Or more of one) You feel wird when you know you aren't, you need a girlfriend or just friends who love anime more than you. Hop on the Drrr chat lines or watch some my little pony/ other team work things. I prromis this will make you feel better, atleast for alittle.

I think you shouldn't bottle your feelings up, if a situation like that arises again where you know the other person is in the wrong, you should speak up, even if it is your father.
You've probably heard this a lot, but you should breathe and perhaps think over whatever you are upset about, ask yourself 'What are you angry about?', 'Is it worth it?'.

And finally, just know that it is okay to cry! Whenever I get upset, I love to cry because I know afterwards I'll feel better than ever. :)

>>1 same thing's been happening to me lately. I like to blame my meds for my Epilepsy though (lol)' even though I know I've been like this before medication. My meds just helped me notice it more (by messin' with my mood slightly more). Life isn't all rainbows and sunshine. I think >>2 is right on the family thing (atleast when thinking of my own situation). It doesn't look like you are seeking advice here though? Just reassurance? It sounds to me like you just need to take a breather, a break. A break from reality. what I do is just lay down and stare at the ceiling for a while, maybe take a nap or browse the internet too. You're not alone, just in case you wanted to know.

>>2
I'd like to think that my household is a good one. I mean, my family are supportive of me of whatever decision I make. They provide me with what I need (food, shelter, whatever). They're also fun people. The only problem is that they're all so stressed out from work that they sometimes (or most of the time) lose themselves and become irrational (especially my dad). I've told them before that they might be too stressed, and they all actually acknowledge it, but doesn't want to seek help or something (well, our country's mindset is that you're weak if you can't handle stress by yourself, so...)
And about the friends stuff... I had some friends. Or perhaps, still have. I don't know. I really find it hard to connect with anyone lately. I keep thinking that they might be getting annoyed with me in one way or another, even though I know it's wrong for me to think of them like that (that it seems like I'm putting them in a bad light and thinking of them as plastics when they're not). But, yeah, thanks :)
>>3
That's the problem, I know it's not worth getting angry about, but I can't stop myself from feeling angry.
>>4
Well, I don't know what I'm seeking as well. I feel a lot better when I'm in the dorms (well, it's weekend, so I'm at home). Well, for those who want to know, I'm feeling better now, I just slept my anger off. But yeah... my dad's throwing another weird tantrum again (he's becoming childlike -_-). Thank you for your reply guys -Sara Stonecore, Anon and Tree, I really appreciate it :)

Ever heard the term father knows best. Your focusing only to yourself when your parents are clearly doing this for you, just forget the fact that they are screaming at you and is angry just focus in what they say and if its reasonable, and what they are saying is very reasonable its not disrespectful to the food its disrespectful to gods gift to you they are watching tv to be updated to whats going on in the world, why were you watching anime to be able to watch it anyway later. Dont think about there mistakes think about your own fault, learn to accept it and redeem yourself by doing what supposed to be done. Its a metter of disciplining yourself and have a little bit more patience

>>6
(Just clearing things out, no offense) Did you even read everything I said? I knew I was in the wrong. I never said that they were all in the wrong and that I don't have any fault. And that's my problem. I know I'm in the wrong then, and I did what was right (yes, I put my laptop down and just ate that time -not that it was the only time this issue of mine arose) yet I feel frustrated about something I shouldn't be frustrated about. I've been like this ever since time immemorial, and no, I haven't actually acted upon it (like scream and shit, I do have tact and "patience" -well, yeah, in a sense of the word). It's just that I'm starting to get worried since it becomes more often and worse (before, I was just frustrated and could easily forget about it just by doing something else (anything), now it's a lot harder to do so).
Btw, the tv show they were watching isn't something "to be updated" about, because it's not news and it's just some weekly show where actors and actresses try to showcase their talents, and non of us are fans of any of them. The tv's just on just for the sake of being on, having sounds, having something to be distracted upon. -and I misworded my first post, it's not while eating, it was before eating (although I was already at the table then -cuz damn, it takes them a lot of time to go and sit at the table cuz they're busy playing on their phones too << another reason I got pissed off then).

Try seeking some therapy,get more rest,do meditation,or some yoga.Maybe even excising like weights or cardio or the wii. If you can try joining some clubs that interest you. Maybe play some online games with good people? Maybe they wanted you to eat with them. If you can,maybe take some breaks from electronics sometimes. I have a similar situation, my dad tells me I play video games all the time when he's on his ipad and laptop longer than me and he says it's ok since he is an adult,my sister as well does this to me too.

As >>8 said, first try and seek therapy or counselling to help tackle this issue. For the time being try and find something outside of anime to make you feel happy and excited, sports perhaps? Playing a sport of some form is a good way to cheer you up while keeping you away from all electronic devices (although personally i'm too lazy for sport myself). If, like me, you despise all forms of physical activity you could always pursue a less physically demanding hobby such as chess? And it doesn't necessarily have to be away from technology, video games and such are still an option but it seems your dad has an issue with you being on your laptop too often so take that under consideration.
For the anger problem you can always vent to a friend or try traditional methods of anger management e.g. counting to ten, taking deep breathes etc, google some to learn a few more.
But yeah, i'm no professional, seek counselling or therapy asap to get this issue resolved and avoid you feeling worse and this problem getting worse, good luck

i think you should try to get all of this emotions out i mean like if u ever feel like crying cry or wan't to screem do it don't hold it in but make sure you're in a place people can't hear you in....
i geuss that would make you feel alot better...
well.. i'm not the one to talk though xD