Let me just say right now that I fucking hate both of my parents. My mother is a crazy, controlling bitch who lashes out easily and endlessly and my dad is an old alcoholic bastard who understandably cheated on my bitch of a mother for her cousin.

I usually have good intuition and observation so I know my father might have mild depression and ground level self-esteem. So I feel pretty bad for what I did just moments before posting this.

Ya see marching band was about to end when the fire alarm suddenly went off and there was panic everywhere. I and the rest of the marching band went to the hill that was a safe distance away from the building as we were instructed. My dad apparently doesn't have any fucking clue about what's going on and he tries to look for me while yelling at me over the phone even though I keep on telling him that I am on the hill with the other students. To shorten this story up, he couldn't find me and thought I wandered off and I pinned him to his seat in the car and slapped and yelled at him out of sheer anger that he wasn't listening to what I was saying.

I already apologised to him a couple of times but I still feel a little bad about it. Both of my parents make my life a living hell and gave me severe depression but they're both still humans with emotions at the end of the day. I haven't been this angry in forever so I'm not sure how I should approach this situation. (Thank you for reading such a long post ❤)

He probably forgive you already but you still cant forgive yourself I absolutely cant do anything about this its up to you to forgive yourself
The post in thefirst paragraph was irrelevant to thae topic at the last paragraph so it was unnecessary, but all parents are like that controling but you just have to accept them after all they are just worrying about you although that alcoholic and cheating between your father is problematic and needs to be disciplined

hey, I was in the almost same position you are in. my dad is an alcoholic. my mom she is so busy, that when she talks to him she says "have you been drinking." that is when I go upstairs and go to my room and close the door while listening to the yelling from downstairs. I had very awful depression. I would cut, cry, think about killing myself. just because of being bullied at school and deal with this at home. There are many ways to escape this. but try this try to venture the house see if he has some secret stronger drinks. my dad did. I apologize deeply for your mother part. I never dealt with the cheating situation. but of you wanna email me at mermaid10@outlook.com good luck.