My life is just not worth it anymore.

I have lost all the love that I once had.

Currently I cannot think of anyone who loves me. The problem that I have is that I consider people to be caring and loving but they are not. I had a best friend but I don't think she is my best friend. She doesn't act like it anymore after graduating. Had a girlfriend but she broke up with me without telling me anything on why. All my friends just plain ignore me. Family doesn't want to waste their time with me.

I have considered to kill myself but is such a tough decision. I want to disappear but I don't know how. Can anyone help me disappear?

There must be someone here who can make me dissapear. The Dollar community is huge so someone must know how to.

I can't deal with me being me anymore. I am hated by people that I know. No one takes time away for me.

I hate myself and don't want to be me anymore.

Would you like to talk about why you think so?
Sometimes we as humans think people dislike us and don't love us if we aren't constantly reassured, and we start overthinking things. I do not think you need to "disappear", but then again I do not know much of what is happening so maybe if you want someone to talk to you can email me at kro.dollars@gmail.com?

Hey.

I should be like, the last person saying this, as I too lost the will to live once. But there's a reason as to you were given a life. Maybe you lost love - who doesn't. I loved and lost. Girlfriends and family members and all that good shit. Hell, I had a best friend who didn't even remember my first name. But I digress. Maybe it could just be you haven't found the people that could geniunely love you. Maybe it could be you don't realize there are others in your life that already do. Whatever it could be, it's nothing to hate yourself over. You are you, a very unique individual randomly given a 1/infinite chance of this thing called sentient life, just like everyone here on Dollars. Okay?

It could be me just rabbling, but seeing posts like this remind me of my pitiful state years ago. I know how hard it is. Many others know. But you have to just hold on there, like in those generic motivational posters. Life will get better and you will find love. Might be a couple of days from now. Might be years. Who knows.

Best wishes,
RKH

(P.S - Don't ask for someone to make you disappear. The Dollars don't roll like that.)

As a person who has lost way too many friend to suicide just remember whether you realize it or not people care about you, and you will hurt them.

If you don't want to be yourself anymore then force yourself to change, for better or worse. nothing good comes from suicide. I say feeling something is better than nothing, like happiness, loneliness, hatred, joy. If those who are close to you are making you feel this way, then either talk to them openly about it, or cut them off from your life.

You fucking idiot. Humans truly are dependent learn to live not depending just keep going and youll find the joy looking for in the future

Well X I am not an expert but first of all you should not hate yourself. Friends and girlfriends are not the only thing to live for look around you there are so many things to enjoy in life. If your friends ignore you make some new ones. Your family i am sure loves you i bet they are just worried about you, talk to them and tell them what you are going through and how you are feeling you will feel better.They will definitely help you.

I was in your place once and said the same stuff you are so i empathize, i really do.
I am still here, still alive, and most the time glad for it. To be honest, no-one can help you disappear and as much as you may want to you only have one life, try it. For me I still hate myself but I've chosen not to accept myself, but accept not accepting myself and i'm finally starting to like life again. I did something in my past that sent me into literal years of despair and i thought it couldn't end so i had to, I tried to disappear same as so many people have, but failed multiple times until something pulled me out and i decided to give life one last chance and although not everything is sorted and i have my moments of going back to what i was i cant give up, if i did then yeah.
Don't give up, I know how tempting it may be and how easy it seems but i was left with no-one as well and a worthless life, even now i think of it as that but now i may not have many people but have the few i have i struggled to gain and only have them to get through life and i decided not to live life for anyone but myself, i have a few plans for when i'm a bit older than i am now and a bit richer and i hold onto them to give me hope and something to live for. Everything may look dark and you may think your alone in your room but look around, create a window and see who's waiting outside. If there is no-one, use as much strength as you can to climb out and find someone or something to help you. That's what i was told and it worked for me, as reluctant as i was to do so. Please try, its the least you can do, what you do after that is up to you.

The Dollars: Cause the world isn't as bad as you think.

Please don't give up

>>2 I would more like to figure out how it is that I can overcome the problem.I think that the way you explained it sums up what is happening. I dont know if people care they never assure me of anything. All of it is like they don't care where I am at.

>>3 Kro I am in the search of authentic love. Maybe things get better. I am sure a lot of it could be me changing my state of mind. There is just something sad about the fact that when you get down no one picks you up. All of it is one self. I have people in my life who say they love me once in a red moon but telling someone you care about them to then disappear and put you constantly on the side lines is not a loving thing at all. Ya know .


>>4 Kyroskiller The thought about suicide at least for me is that while I am alive and I say something like I feel bad and lonely I am treated like I am weak and pathetic for it. By committing to suicide they can learn that other people who are in pain are serious and are not just weak and pathetic like they treat them out to be. If pain is what brings up that enlightenment it would be a positive move even if it includes my own demise.

>>5 Guardian I am trying to change. I am slowly taking steps to change to see if that helps because even though I wish to disappear I would love more for things to be alright in my life.

>>6 unknow thanks for the words of encouragement.

>>7 There are many things to enjoy in life but at the same time without relationships that matter in life no matter what you do it will be a lonely road. Constantly getting new friends when things fail is like a thing that for me doesn't feel right. I don't people in my life to be objects and when things go wrong to turn them in with their receipt and be like "Its broken can I get a new one?"

>>8 Your story is touching. I will try and find a way. I'll try. I am just really tired of failing.

>>9 Thanks Sora.

I hate the personal board. Why am I on here.

>>1 Philosophy. It will help. Ultimately though, it's up to you to change your life. We can't really help. We can give advice or support, but this isn't really the place to get the help to disappear. You have to take the steps to become better and change your life. Victimising yourself doesn't get you anywhere; rather, it aggravates the problem. Stop acting like the victim. Man up. Pull yourself up by the bootstraps. Life sucks. We all get it. The reason we all seem 'happy' is because you look at us and don't see what we've gone through. You don't see what we're hiding. We're all messed up. Those of us who 'make it' just decided that enough was enough and that we were going to do something about it. So, when will you hit the rock bottom of rock bottom? When will you decide that enough is enough, stop being the victim, and do something about it?