I'm wondering how people deal with straight up hard truths you need to hear.

Not like news about something, more along the lines of handling hard advice and truths for your own self improvement. Like "follow your passion or die" "just do it" type stuff.

I recently saw a video of "psycho mob 100" in which he explains even though the main character has a unique talent, he still strives for self-improvement and refuses to stiffing it by being satisfied with his own powers, blaming others or wallow in despair/do nothing.

It was a hard bomb to take b/c sometimes it feels when I try to take that advice at first I really become hard working, but after a while it becomes to the point where I feel I'm a robot completing all these task even though I'm working towards something and the procrastination cycle comes back.

It's those things where "it's that simple stupid" that really makes me feel more stupid and worthless than being endearing to learn.

I'm already harden as it is enough due to large expectations I make for myself and other from school work, it's different field entirely if it's something personal for me.

Sometimes I don't know what I want or who I want to be since I am in my senior year in high school. Also I've struggled with depression and sometimes feel it's pop back into my life again.

I'd appreciate your advice, thank you.

I get what you mean, I struggle with the same thing. It feels like there's this whole "follow your dreams!" "find your passion!" "dream big!" type of mentality that people want to see (especially colleges ugh), and I hate hearing people say those things. It's just so harsh on me. Because I don't really know how to develop a dream or passion or anything like that... I guess that sort of lifestyle just doesn't exist for everyone. Especially with other factors like depression, things get a Lot less simple.

I get really worried about this sort of thing, but the only thing that's made me feel better was hearing someone say that it's okay not to live so vigorously all the time. I try to remember that person's words whenever I feel discouraged about this stuff, and it's sort of comforting to me, so I'll repeat the gist of what he said. I hope it can help you out too.

Rather than living fiercely and having a passion, it's okay to just coast along through life too. It's always good to work hard when you can, but don't be discouraged when other people's expectations say it's not good enough. To some people work is just work, and they just have to find other things that make them happy. You can work without passion, and you can enjoy things that make you happy without it being a passion. It's fine living like that.

So yeah, that's about it. Sorry if this wasn't much help... I'm kind of stuck in the same boat as you lol. But I'm wishing the best for you.

This idea of the necessity to be something more than you already are is a simple social construct. being human is quite magnificent, but we take it for granted. we take it so for granted that we are serious about making it better.

The funny thing is that, what needs to be improved cant do the improving. its simple psychology. and its quite comical.

The very thought of there needing to be improvement on one thing or another just manifests the issue into reality.

We take every little thing so personal - I remember watching hunterxhunter, and Gon, despite how strong he had become, had to admit how weak he truly was. This was devastating to me. I took it so personally that I was depressed for days. I had also to admit to myself how weak I was. And that was ok. The need to be strong or better is simply a displacement of fear - fear of being weak or insignificant.

All that said - I say this; I want to teach. I want to be a collage professor - and I've done nothing, by social standards (in western culture at least) to progress to such a thing.

Although, what I understand of teaching is that, in order to be prepared to teach, I must always be learning.

Lo and behold - bring me back to this moment right here; not what I could have done or should be doing - I teach. Right here, right now - I teach. I don't need a degree or a certification; I don't need someone else who thinks they're better than the rest of the world to say 'this guy knows what hes talking about' - that so self-defeating its insane, and completely unnecessary.

I have opportunities to learn and to teach everyday. I choose to seize them. I don't limit myself by whether or not I 'qualify' - just because I don't know everything about Freud or Jung doesn't mean I cant have a deep thought. Just because I don't memorize every lyric on an album or figure out where all the band members were born, doesn't mean I can't appreciate the music. I can't read a sheet of music for shit, but does that stop me from jamming out? does that stop me from making up my own songs? absolutely NOT.

I know nothing about proper grammar, but I still write. I want to write stories, so I write them. I want to help people, so I help them. I want to learn, so I learn. I want to teach, so I keep learning.

are you picking up what i'm putting down?

Well when I hear that I get angry because I already know that you don't have to tell me, somewhere in those lines. But I sometimes regret that being ignorant or arrogant isn't a very admirable trait it's the main reason why people are unreasonable, tell me do you want this? If yes then don't say you don't like working hard, if no then don't do this, next question do you need to do this? If yes then endure if no then don't do it. These words such as follow your passion is quiet simple and has no further explanation it's very hard to take seriously without a deeper meaning it don't seem to engrave in your hearts, in the end this is just words. The choice has to come from you, you can take in opinions but is your choice in which to apply, learn decision making without having other persons saying what you need to do