So my family see ... uh, people who should not be among us. Like the other call: dead. It's all right. My grandfather believed I was the reincarnation of his sister and so (I think) when I was born and a year later he died, he stayed with me. I grew up with him, he is like a friend, always telling me bad things are going to happen for me to try to avoid. It's all right. A few months ago my grandmother was going to have surgery. he told me in a dream that her surgery would have complications, several complications, and he told me all the complications. He also said that as soon as I woke up, I should climb the stairs, go in the room of my mother, and talk about the complications, so that my mother spoke to the doctors and they could somehow avoid complications. When I woke up, I believe I remembered everything. But when I saw the clock it was three in the morning, the dead time, I get scared and went back to sleep. It is not alright. I mean, so I woke up, I got up fast, to note the complications, but I forgot almost all of the unique words that I remembered were '' cardiogram '' and '' electrocardiogram '' I told my mother everything, and as expected Grandma almost had some heart problems, had not because the doctors who have been advised by my mother, were attentive to the heart of Grandma. But other complications, which I forgot, I killed my grandmother. And now all I feel is guilt. It is a guilt so great that I can not stand thinking about my cowardice, and I start to cry. My grandfather stopped showing up for me, and now I feel all alone and filled with guilt.

I killed her indirectly, you understand? my fear made me forget the complications and so she died. Damn, I suck, man.

That sounds really rough..

Im sorry

no need to apologize, its jut a lot to take in. I cant say i understand what your going through, but you shouldnt beat yourself up so hard. Dream are hard for me to remember also. Even when its really important. But at the same time, this was a big one. I truly am sorry for your loss

You are not guilty. And the idea that your soul was the same as hers is faulty. your soul is your own and no bode=y else I am not trying to be insensitive or anything but it is true there is no way that your birth would be the cause of her death. everyone has had their own soul and no one else. if it is true that everyones' souls has been used over and over again , It would be truly the saddest point in existence because the soul would at no point have any control over anything either it would be tied to every action of its past lives even though it is incompletely unaware of anything or It would be doomed to lose everything over and over again with each passing life. also it would create a point in witch their would be more people being born than the number of souls available making it so that there would be either a far amount of people with no souls at all or every time a person is born another would instantly die automatically without any reason or explanation at all whatsoever.the othe possabllaty is that once all the souls are on the planet it would become impossible for some one to be born. so please do not blame yourself for your grandmas death do you honestly believe that she would be happy knowing that something like this would cause her family such sadness in anyway? so chin up you are not responsible for your great aunt death it is impossible. I am afraid your grandpa is wrong and how on earth could he possible know where his sisters soul is? It is more likely that he wished for her to be close and if he chose to believe that her soul was in you his sister would still be near him evan though she has passed and from what I can tell from your post you are a unique and kind person only one such as that would worry about such a thing in the first place. so pleas do not be sad you are the only owner of your soul Yukito!

The problem isn't about the soul being shared. Whether or not this is the case is irrelevant. The real issue is the dream premonition. OP, correct me if I'm wrong, but I believe the problem is that you were given information in a dream about how to save your grandmother. As far as you can tell, the dream was accurate, but you didn't tell someone or write it down while you still remembered and as a result the information was not delivered and she died. You feel you could have prevented it and thus feel guilty about her death, and the fact that the spiritual connection and dream premonitions that you had previously have stopped seems to support this guilt.

First off, there is no saying that more information would have saved her. Yes, what you remember about your dream was accurate. But dreams are fickle and, trust me, they can get jumbled even if your grandpa is on the other end trying to deliver a message. It's like playing telephone. If you don't remember the other parts, then you can't say for sure that they were accurate anyway.

Second, even if your grandfather delivered the message perfectly and you received it perfectly, there is still no saying that it would have saved her. As a Tarot reader, let me tell you something about the future: you can't know everything. Even your grandfather. All he could know is what would happen if nothing changed. He didn't like the outcome, so he tried to change the path that leads to that outcome. Changing the path does not guarantee a change of outcome. He didn't know that getting this information out would save her, he just hoped that it would save her. Now that it's over, neither you nor your grandfather can know what would have happened.

Third, you didn't kill anyone. You didn't cause anyone's death. You tried to save someone who was already going to die. You failed to save them, but that does not make you responsible for the death. You did not intentionally let her die. I don't know what you have against 3am, but apparently you recognize it as dangerous. Being cautious is not a crime. You didn't know that you would forget, you didn't choose to forget, and you did your best to remember as much as you could. You are not guilty.

Fourth, the fact that you feel guilty means nothing. It's a normal reaction and even if you didn't have any kind of premonition, you would still have felt guilty. I felt guilty when my grandmother died because I wasn't there at the exact moment it happened. She had already been unconscious for a while before she actually died and there would have been absolutely nothing I could have done if I had been there. I still felt guilty. Because guilt happens when people die, even if it doesn't make sense.

And finally, your grandfather is not shunning you because he blames you. Your grandfather knows the situation, knows you did your best, and knows that it might not have saved her anyway. And most importantly, he loves you. If he had made a mistake and given you information that wasn't completely accurate or failed to save her anyway, would you blame him for it? No. He cares about you. He loves you. But you know what happens when people feel strong negative emotions like guilt and fear? They lose contact. With whatever they had contact with before. Negative emotions like guilt draw you into yourself. You are too focused on YOU and what YOU could have done better, and you can't hear what HE is trying to say. And you are afraid. You are afraid to hear him because you are afraid that he will blame you. Because you blame yourself. You won't be able to contact him until you get rid of your guilt and your fear.

There's nothing to fear. Bad things happen in life and sometimes, even when you try, things don't go the way you want them to. You grandfather loves you and even if he were disappointed, he would still want to help you, not hurt you. Things will be OK, but first you have to heal yourself so that you can move forward.

I always remember the dreams I had with my grandfather, the guilt I feel is: Why the hell I did not remember this dream, which was the most important I have ever had? Many people cried because I could not remember. >>6 About grandpa think I was his sister, I don't really believe it, just accept this idea when it comes to why he continued on my side even after he died. He should want to help her 'sister' which he longed to be close again, but eventually died before having a more friendly relationship with me. I really don't understand many things about reincarnation, or why he's here, my family does not explain me. I know I should not blame me, it's kinda hard, I wanted grandpa were here helping me,>>8 but I agree that the bad feelings should be preventing me from hearing it. I think this is something that will be overcome with time. I feel better just by talking the way I feel about it. I mean, when grandma died I had to keep from crying to comfort my mother and my sister, so I did not have someone who comforted me, since Grandpa did not appear. >> 8 Yes, that's what happened. Thank you, there was a time I got to blame my grandfather for what happened, what you said about him not blame me and love me, made me realize that it was stupid to blame he.