Starting off, I moved to America in January and in February met a transgender who asked me out. We ended up dating for 4 months or so until he became serious, and I'm a little too young for that kind of thing so I broke up with him and we didn't talk to eachother for about a month.

During this summer break we began talking again and remained friends. Though today... today his friend contacted me on kik panicking and saying that my ex was going to kill himself if I didn't get back with him. I thought it was a bunch of bullshit and went to contact him right away.

Once I'd contacted him he confirmed it and began to get all metaphorical and suicidal. He told me all the reasons he wanted to die, and to be honest, they were rather stupid. But he seemed serious. He didn't seem like the type to resort to threats or anything, so I freaked out and took him back.

He's happy, but... I feel sick and disgusted with both him and myself. I wish I knew a way to deal with this, but all I have are distractions for now. I don't know what he'll say tomorrow... he'll go back to calling me and... saying that he loves me...

I don't want that, but I don't have the guts to make someone hate me...

Wait, why are you disgusted in him?

And that username isn't going to help, at all. It might even be detrimental.

>>2 huh what I've been using this username for like a year m8 and I aint changin it now

And he's disgusting because it's horrible to tell someone that you're going to kill yourself just to get them back into a relationship with you.

>>3 Oh, sorry bout that then. Never really seen you around, so I thought you were new...

I get how that's bad. Then why are you disgusted in yourself?

I think what he's doing is illegal.
When you have few hours of time, go to the police, tell them everything. That way, you're away from him, and he's in the hands of people who can actually keep him safe from himself.

Apart from the police, I can't think of someone who can help, but googleing around might get you something.
Else, there's only gritting your teeth and telling him that it's over, even if he starts his suicide talk again.
In any case, he seriously needs professional help, from what I've gathered from your post.

I agree with >>5 about this. The guy you've mentioned really needs professional help if he is using suicide to accomplish what he wants. I honestly think that getting back in a relationship with him, albeit under threat, was the smartest thing to do in that situation. If you hadn't, who knows what the guy might've done to himself? You have absolutely no reason to be disgusted with yourself, and in fact the only person I found disgusting was the guy. Threatening suicide just to get back in a relationship is a selfish idea that has no chance of ever ending well. I would take this time right now to inform someone, anyone, of your situation. That way you can contact the authorities before the situation gets anymore out of hand. If you don't have the courage to do so you can have someone you trust do it for you, even if it means you have to swallow up some pride.

>>5>>6 Thanks. I don't know if this is a legit reason to call the police on a 14 year old but I will definitely tell my parents and see if they can do something first.

>>7 :| If he's 14, yeah, tell his parents, fast.

>>7 You should inform your parents as well as his, or whoever his caretakers are. As for this not being a legit reason to call the police, I'm not sure if it's them you should contact. What this guy is doing is something akin to blackmail, and the fact that he seems mentally unstable make it seem like the smartest thing would be to get someone that could help his mental state. I'm not entirely sure what the police would do so idk.

I had a suicidal friend when I was around your age. She attempted suicide one night, and I called the police. She was taken to a hospital, where they worked on rehabilitating her and told her about free mental health services in the area (depending on where you live, this might not be available). It couldn't hurt, but I wouldn't do it unless he attempts it again.