>>2 I don't have any friends, and haven't had any friends in a couple of years. This is because I find that trying to keep up conversation can be tiresome, and there are many days where I just don't feel like talking. I'm a loner, as you would call it. I still talk to my family occasionally despite this.
>>3 It's probably been a few months, and even then I had not spoken about this issue. I had not had my Vitamin D levels checked. Of course, I very rarely go outside. My vitamin D levels may be very low.
>>5 I've actually tried to pick up those hobbies before (aside from music) and I dropped them very quickly. Maybe in less than a day.
>>4 you know, that could actually help.
Regarding depression, I feel like I am becoming less and less motivated to do much of anything over the year. I'd still do some outdoor activities with my family, though. Unfortunately, I always feel tired when doing this.
I think for me, life is starting to lose its value. This is the only way I can explain this. I feel less inclined to keep up activities that people are more motivated to do. I'm not sure if this philosophy on life is worth mentioning, though. This could very well be the result of overthinking.
To elaborate further on my lack of concentration, I would like to mention feeling detached from other people and my surroundings. I don't know how to explain this correctly. It feels like I don't feel completely awake, like I'm not 100% aware of what I'm doing. As I've said, it's like a fog in my mind. It's like I'm not 'into' activities as much as most other people are. This also contributes to my apathy for my social life, as well as my reputation at school. Other kids in my school seem to care about social activities, while I don't even know what events are going on at school...
When I'm trying to concentrate on something, it doesn't take kong for me to lose focus. Listening to my teachers became increasingly harder. I end up zoning out completely, unless I'm tajing notes. When I read, I end up daydreaming. When I'm watching anime, I tend to forget some things that are important that was explained before. I have trouble hearing when watching films on television, so I always need captions. I also zone out a lot when watching films. I can never be completely focused when doing activities, which is why I'm so forgetful.
I rambled again.