I feel so alone in this world that i don't know what to do anyone everyone around me just hurt me more and more every day that passes by that the pain is just to much that I start to ask myself "what am I doing here should I just disappear where to some place where I can't feel pain anymore where there won't be people who just hurt me when i do something good or wrong."My own family don't even understand how i feel if i tell them how i feel they will just hurt me more because all of them will think that I've gone crazy and sent me alway somewhere but they will never understand how i feel.They think sending me away to get help would really help me but that not the point at all.It's because I feel unloved and unimportant I don't need to be sent any away to get help i just needed to know if they even care about me.

You're never alone on the internet <3

I've been in your shoes before, I want to help you through this. It's hard, it hurts, and it can lead to a lot of bad thoughts and feelings. Send me an email when you get the chance. My email is victus.dollars@gmail.com

I don't know where they're sending you too, but I'd recommend a licensed doctor more than going nowhere. Uhm... I recommend it because if it is a mental condition, having an official diagnosis does help one to cope with what they're going through. I got diagnosed with epilepsy not too long ago, and it does feel good to know that you're not the only one going through this. Anyways other than that, to go to a place where you can't feel pain anymore would be awesome, but part of the process involves yourself. I used to blame my family for not noticing when I did things. I used to think that they didn't care. They would call me annoying. tell me to shut-up and things among other things. At some point in my life, I realized that I can't change them, or expect them to change. I have accepted the way they are and decided to carry on with my life. I realized that my sadness was caused by, none other than me letting my surroundings that I cannot change get the better of me. The only thing I can change is my perspective and it takes years. Even now, every oncce in a while I find myself in sucky situations, but I remind my myself that it's only temporary (except my epilepsy... it seems that it might be permanent, lol). Anyways, you're not alone And I recommend medical attention if there is no one else to turn too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMuSaoF0shQ&list=PLCOgX8TW9tS8UvFFrnR6UhIy-ibYBNF4g

I want you to listen to the whole album I think it'll help you alot. x