I've been down in the past two days, found out my grandma that took care of me when I was little had past away.

And I was planing on to go see her.

But now I'm just beating myself up for not visiting sooner, I'm glad I got this off of my chest. I haven't told my mom about how I'm feeling.

I understand why you would feel that way, but just feeling something for it means you care. I'm sorry for your loss but just know they're never really gone unless you forget about them. She would be happy knowing you want to visit and maybe it will bring you closure.

Thanks, you don't know how much your reply means to me.

This might be late, but I agree with Taegumi, if you're upset, it means you care, and that's all that matters. Your grandmother might be gone physically, but that doesn't mean she isn't watching over you. We all lose people before we're ready to, and we have so many regrets afterwards, but always remember that they only want the best for us, they wouldn't want you to beat yourself up for them. I'm really sorry for your loss, and take your time recovering, but just remember that you've done nothing wrong. Your grandmother would be happy knowing that you're thinking about her :) take care!

Manga Owl hit it right on the head! Your grandmother, I am sure, would understand and simply want you to be happy. She would want you to always remember her, but also work towards a better future for yourself, a happy one. Sometimes the greatest gift we receive is knowing a loved one is well.