Okay ..sooooooooo
I'm apparently an alcoholic. Not really the topic of my inane post but just putting it out there.
I have spent my whole life completely submitting myself in one thing, and then jumping to another and letting that matter consume my being. I essentially get obsessed with one thing/action/matter I n my life and when j get hired I move on to the next thing.
It seems that I've hit a bump in the road here because I have no idea what I want to do now. I used to be a great leader, then a singer, then a working man, and now...well I'm just a guy who occasionally has a drink when I come ho E from work. I'm so well separated from my family and friends....were on opposite ends of the u.s, so I ant really lean on them as I used to. The only other person I have is currently busy with their own life/goals/family that I don't really know what to do.
At this point I drink to keep my own thoughts from bugging me to the point of insanity, and that's really not a joke. The last time I was alone with myself I just kept thinking about what to do next, there was nothing that came to mibd and so I thought myself into a vegetative state and just stayed there, staring at the ceiling not knowing what i should do.
I don't even know what the heck I'm posting this for you be honest. Just a little drunk and bored I guess

you know, maybe it would help to investigate a bit into things that you enjoy doing as possible job options? i don't have much experience with life to be honest, but i understand escapism and feelings of hopelessness.
if you are really worried about your drinking, but don't want to lose the ability to stop yourself from being alone with your thoughts, you could try other means. i used reading - mostly fiction stories really but being able to immerse myself in some other place was really helpful for me to get away from reality for some time and a lot of my current interests (and current career path) have come from those books. picking up a hobby yourself could also introduce you to some new people. it'll be hard at first (especially if you're a bit shy like me) but it could be well worth it.
you could pick up some new skills or even go back to school to take a different direction. i'm trying not to just be telling you what to do etc because honestly when it comes down to it, you need to find a way for yourself to enjoy your life and at least tolerate your work. you don't have to reply to this if you don't want to, you can ignore it, you can try some of the stuff, and if you want you can talk to me or others on this site about random stuff that interests you or anything really if you feel like you need someone to talk to. so yeah. i hope that at least knowing that just because you can't think of anything right now doesn't mean you won't find something :)
sorry this is so long. sorry if this is stupid for me to respond to you like this but i felt like i had to let you know someone saw this.