I'm at a point in my life where my mental issues matter, and am unsure of how to get myself help when I'm just given antidepressants and left to deal with the side effects. I never get them refilled, I was prescribed a medication months ago but after running out I didn't want to go to my appointment.

It's been a cycle like that for a long time now. Some things have happened and now I'm aware that everything need to be fixed but, I don't know if I can honestly get better. I don't think depression is all there is.

Someone relies on me and I need to get better. It's 3AM, Sunday, and on Monday I'll have to sort through what happeneds next in my life. I'm tired of being fucked up, I hate getting help. I'm too old for this though.

I suppose that the only other thing that can help you out is friends. I know a lot of people constantly throw that out there and so it gets annoying after a while, but it is definitely something helpful

Well anyone close to you or who you really trust can help you
Or get some motivated by something