So I have past that involves depression and it was bad. I used to cut, I had multiple attempts, and I always felt out of place. Recently, two of my friends said that they didn't want to be my friends anymore. The first time, I accepted it, and moved on with my life. but then my other friend said the same thing, except this time he told me why. He said that I'm rude inconsiderate of others and one of the most hated people in the school. At first I looked past what he said and didn't let it affect me that much, but then i started paying more attention to the way people act towards me, and it made me dwell on what my friend had said. Soon after old feelings started coming back. I've been feeling the need to cut again, and have been losing my strength. I've only talked to one person about how I've been feeling, but it hasn't helped much. Every day the feelings have been getting worse and worse. Please give me some advice.

try to help people arround you, the satisfaction you get from helping other will help you

I know what you're going through. And I'd like to say that everything is ok. But it is up to you to decide. All I can say is that sometime people are two faced. Those are the type of people I loath. I can easily walk pass that and they are dead to me, but this wont work for everyone. You probably wouldn't want my pity, which I'm not. I just want to help. In my opinion, you can just forget all about them, they're not worth your pain.

Sorry if I'm not much of a help. I'm mostly apathetic about 'friendship' thing and I'm not good at consolation