So, I ranting random shit, trying to figure out myself what is it on my mind.. This couple of hours, I have been thinking hard and hard, There is a lot on my mind.. Good thing, I have my work and I can shut off non essential things when I'm at work though sometimes it leaks out and I find myself staring into nothingness, then I snap out of it like some Anime Character who's about to have his life change because of some dumb bad/good luck whatever you call it....... Maybe, I'm watching too many anime's but then that's all I do in my free time.. since it's so boring here, I can't even tell, if I love my work but I do think I love my job.. It pays good that's for sure, I have to think of my family as well so, in reality I am living the life... but at the same time I'm not.. I really don't know anymore... then again, after this rant i'll be at work and I forget everything that I have just said here. Back to Reality... Ugh.. (To those who think this post should be in random feel free to think that, because I think this is personal and that's what matters right? what I think?) everyone keeps saying that just be yourself don't listen to others and don't change because of opinion of the majority, but the truth is, we are all subjected to societies criticism, be it good or bad, and we always, always go with it.. just like the Anime No Game No Life, Reality is a Game with no Parameters, IT SUCKS. I do think a world like Disboard is a good Idea no? I mean Yes?, Where there are clearcut goals.. if you want to survive you have to win, well, still..

Pondering Pondering Pondering of all things.. those that matter and those that doesn't in the slightest, have you question life itself, why is this? why is that? Why am I like this? Is this reality of are we in somebody's dream? I saw this ANime Movie called "The Promised PLace in our Early Days" by Shinkai Makoto, it has a really good feel to it. It delves on the concept that the universe is dreaming and we are all in that dream.. so if the universe is to wake up, then do we disappear? We wouldn't know would we? since we cannot know we've disappeared already... but what if we are all dreaming like in the MATRIX, HAHAHA! I'm amazed at myself, how can all this things pops up to my head like a bubble.. I have never ranted this much in the internet yet I feel glad.. it's an escape maybe, I think a lot but do little.. I'm what you call an introvert, not much assertiveness even though my work needs me to be assertive otherwise i would not advance in my career, and I do want to advance, but I think I lump assertiveness to being mean, not totally but to some degree, yes. but I can't do that? so I just go with my pace smoothly and slowly.. I was promoted last year, and I was happy about that, surely my family was, but me? meh! -_- I had so much reservations if i could actually passed the interviews and all but when I actually passed I don't know.. It was okay... I'm reaching my limit.. I have a lot to talk but I gotta sleep I hve work in a couple of hours.. Ugh So. here ends my rant but you can expect more from me.. you sage this all you want.. to your hearts content I don't mind.. Sore Ja!!