You can skip this part, I'm just venting.
I feel like a jerk... a lot of the things you say about your friend sound like my ex. I knew her for two years before we started dating. I knew she cut, I knew she felt sad. She seemed to keep it all locked inside and sometimes it was so obvious that I had to ask, but that was before we got together. and it was during highschool. I asked her out in Higschool too, but she rejected me. we still kept in touch as friends. we would hang out sometimes, and she did date another guy for a while. she broke up with him because I stopped talking to her. I stopped talking to her because I thought that was the best for the two of them to stay together, but somehow that partially led up to their breakup? Anyways, I'm getting off topic, keep read if you like.
Okay, so some time went by, high school went by, and we still kept in touch and would hang-out once in a while. I didn't see her sad-side anymore. A year and some time went by, and she! Yes, she.... asked me out. I was honestly at the time starting to develop a crush on someone else, but that moment made me change my mind straight away back to her.
Anyway life sucks. I broke it off after a month, why? we never actually went on a date, our work schedules would get in the way. we would still text but after a week and a half she stopped talking to me. Maybe I came on too clingy or maybe it was something else. Maybe I wasn't emotionally supportive enough like you
>>11. because my ex was going through problems, she had some family issues, and probably depression. And I! I Just freaking didn't know what to do!
Like I said after a week and a half, she stopped talking to me(by which I mean calling and texting). I still kept trying to contact her to talk to her. After a few days I got in contact with her older sister, her older sister said she was fine, so I was like "okay." Another few days went by and still no reply from my ex. So, I talked to her sister again, "she's fine," her sister said, "I'll tell her to call you." So nearly three weeks into the relationship she finally sends me a text, a reply to my messages. That's whemn my ex tells me, yes, she finally tells me... to stop talking to her family to try to get in contact with her. Apparently she's not close to her family. She also said to leave her alone for a while. Here's where I feel like a jerk.
I left her alone for a while. Maybe this was the time when she needed the most emotional support, the time when she needed to have some one she could talk to, or atleast know that there's someone who she can rely on if she ever needed. I don't know.
Anyway, literally two days later I quit my job, the boss stressed me out, even though I was doing okay. After I quit I was thinking now I have no way to financially support her either if we do stay together. "I was thinking, I'm not going to be a good boyfriend, let alone if we were to marry I wouldn't make a good husband!" so came the end of that week, at the time I thought giving her that week all to herself was enough for her to "get better," or something, so I sent her a text...no reply. A full day went by and I just lost it. She asked me out! And now she's not talking to me! Only the first week went somewhat fine, but the rest of the time it was so much effort to even get a reply! I gave up. I couldn't deal with it anymore, I didn't know what to do and my mind couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to be able to talk to her about my problems too, about things I went through that helped me! But, When you don't even give me the slightest chance to talk, how the heck am i supposed to help! HUH!? I'm not the type to express my emotions often, not even to her, so I never told her that I felt like this throughout the relationship.
And suddenly I send a break-up text, she wouldn't answer my calls, so what else could I do. I still sucked at expressing my emotions so I didn't say much. Only that I felt ignored and that the relationship wasn't going well.
She never replied after that, ever. But, her sister caught wind of it and asked me what happened and why I'm doing this? I had her sister on instagram, so I told her. Her sister said that we should atleast go back to being friends. And I was like, "okay." And we never talked ever again since then.
And now it's been two months and your post brought everything back to me. Now I feel like a jerk. Maybe I could've given her more time to herself 'cause look, It's now been two months and I haven't been with anyone else. Two months! I was just starting to develop a new crush (or two). And now seeing your Post just brought back all those memories we've had and what has happened in the past two years that I've known her as well as what led to the break up. I want to talk to her again. to know if she's doing fine.... I hate you OP, 'cause now I hate myself. I'm also wondering what the heck I should do now.
Sorry for venting, you don't need to read all of the above.
>>11 Anyways, here's my advice from me to you whether you are a guy or a girl:
1. Don't stop talking to your friend.You may be the only friend she has.
2.Hear her out. Maybe you don't know what to do or say, but she may need a listening ear at some point in time and you might be the only one to be able to have that ear.
3.Talk to her about problems that you go through (for example, the struggle of being poor, or something), because if you don't, she'll feel like she's going through this alone and that no one can relate.
4. I don't know, paying attention more to one friend than to your other friends to me seems stupid, but, do it. Just do it. This friend of yours is crying for attention, because she needs help. Do it. Be there for her, keep in contact and be there in person whenever you can. Even if this is emotionally draining for you too, that just shows the severity of the situation.
5. Don't give up on your friend! She'll feel betrayed if you do, atleast I know I would.
well,
>>11, that's all I have to say. It's not my problem what you're going through. And you don't have to take my advice either. Life sucks anyway you look at it. So if anything you do doesn't help. Don't blame yourself for it. Good Luck!