Okay. So... There is this boy that I see every day. I used to have feelings for him (I'm a gay guy) but when I spoke to him, I later on found that he lied to me. Now, I purposely take the long way to World History to see this kid but I don't know why. Every time I seem to see him... I get a weird feeling in my chest and I kind of get depressed. But why? Is this the feeling of liking somebody? Even Love? I feel that it is hate due to me knowing what love feels like and this feels totally different from that feeling. I'm happy with my boyfriend, by the way. Is this the feeling of me being depressed of not being able to have him? Hell, I don't know. But what I do know is that I still have small feelings toward him due to my actions. Unintentional ones. Just thinking of him, I seem to get upset. What should I do? Please help.

I often feel like this also when I think of two friends of mine. I go to a different school than them now and I am constantly thinking about them. I feel super happy at first because of how many fun times we've had together, but then feel awful and cry... I haven't even talked to one of them for almost over a year now and we used to talk every day. I talk to the other friend every week and she makes me laugh out loud even when we are just texting. We actually dated for a while, but it was mostly unofficial and we decided to just be friends. She still talks to me about relationships though. Thats when its really fun- she'll tell me who she likes and the drama going on at her school and i'll just say 'mhm' and smile, just happy that she's so comfortable talking to me. Recently I've been in a mood and i said something i shouldn't have. i just said it without thinking and after i felt horrible. then her girlfriend goes off on me about how i shouldn't call myself her friend and how they both hate me and it makes me want to kill myself... Im sorry I'm going on about my life and not helping at all with your situation, but i just wanted to get this all out. I really don't know how to help and i hope you feel better about him. I just want you to know that you are not the only one who feels like this about someone.

This is mixed feelings, you might feel resent towards the man, but love, and a bunch of other things. To help with this i suggest talking to him or a friend about it.