I had to repost)))

all i want out of life is a nice quiet life where i can focus on things but instead i get all the things wrong.

first: I feel like my friends and family hate me. ill admit im a mooch im a liar somethimes but i try to be nice to everyone instead im thrown around and commanded what to do my dad calls me a rat and the rest of my family is always bitchin about each other

second: I break things i can never have nice things because im not worthy i feel like if there was a god he spends most of his time finding the nice things i own and making sure they get destroyed

third: i feel like i deserve all of this and shouldn't be complaining

Hello Kanra.
I can't say I know how you feel. And because of that, you may think my words have no importance but please read anyways.
Even though we don't know each other, and even though we don't see each other, THERE ARE people out there that care. Despite what you may tell yourself.
You don't like the life you've been given? Fine. Then make a life FOR YOURSELF. Find something that makes you happy--that gives you a reason to live... That gives you the peace you need in a noisy world.
Please try and do that at the very least Kanra. Even though it's hard...
I had a close friend who thought similarly to you, but she wasn't able to see the good parts in her crazy life. (She committed suicide half a year ago)
Not that i'm saying that those types of thoughts are in your head--I hope that they're not.
No one deserves to have a crap life. But sadly, we get the life that we are born and raised into. That we can't change. But instead of throwing it away because we don't want it, I think we should use it and make it into something we're proud of.
Aja Fighting Kanra!

if I said to those people i want a quiet life ill be treated evenworse then i already am. i tell people i want to be alone but they're response it "are you ok" asked ninety times a day or im harassed even more for wanting a quiet life. Im told i dont want to be alone and that i can't live with my friends or that i owe them

I've been in a similar situation stuck in the same rut that you are. Afraid I don't really have much advice to give you besides life goes on. If you are about to graduate, whether from middle school, high school, or college, it is a chance for a fresh start. In middle school, everyone hated my guts, but now that I'm in high school, nobody even knows my name. As far as familial issues go, try talking to your father, unless he is physically abusive, then just avoid him. I've never gotten better at not breaking things (just broke a 2 month old phone and got a new one yesterday) but accidents happen. If your parents can'take accept that you're a bit of a klutz, then try to invest in some safety measures for all your new/expensive items (ie. Strong phone case, not holding your computer incorrectly, etc.) Good luck!

Btw, all examples were from personal experiences you would not believe.

is it wrong to want to be alone?

It's your own choice whether you believe this or not. The choice is yours alone. (You'll see where I'm getting at soon) God created human beings in his own image. There was beauty and good in all creation until Adam and Eve went against God's word (you can read more about this in the first three chapters of the book of Genesis). Since then, humanity has sinned constantly. However, God always had a plan for this. He sent his son, Jesus Christ, to come and take the punishment in our place so that we could have the opportunity and choice on whether we accepted him into our heart. It is because of sin that the world is like this unfortunately. The one responsible for this sin is none other than Satan aka the devil. He is the one responsible for everything that is evil and cruel. Why? Because he wants us to turn away from God. He is desperate because he knows God had already won the battle for us. He loves you and is hurt by the pain you have to go through. He doesn't want to see you sad. He is always there and will listen and answer you. You just have to have faith that he will make things better. I had a really hard time at one point in my life. I didn't know what to do about it but when I finally surrendered my heart to him, the scars on my heart were staying to be mended. I'm still healing, but I'm so much happier and peaceful than I've ever felt before. It's a feeling that's like no other. So know that you are not alone. We all go through difficult times, but God is good. He is always there for you because, like I said, he loves you unconditionally.

Everyone is something to someone no one is nothing.

>>7 This, but not in so many words. ...And less teacher-y.