Sometimes I don't understand life. I don't really get what's happening around me. These past 7 months has been one thing after another of just bad situations. I feel like I've given up. I don't know what to do. I don't know who to trust with all the people who have betrayed me. I've been doing drugs. Very often. It's the only time I don't feel sad. I just don't think of any of the it when i'm high. That's bad right? I just feel hopeless, and I've contemplated ending it all way too much. I don't even know what I'm doing here. I haven't been on here in years. Everything's just slipping away. This probably doesn't make sense.

I also haven't been on here in a while. I currently have a discord group to discuss mental "disorders" and hidden 'alternative' ways to see/realize their existence in a more describeable/digestible format. I'd like you to join, if you like.

https://discord.gg/0mpYNY4JsElg213o
Anyone interested in the topic of neurodiversity and such may join, but beware- the terms used will be new to you if you are unfamiliar with Jung/MBTI/cognitive functions.

I'm fully willing to explain everything in detail- and realize that this will take time. I do have time and will address those who are patient.

>>1 I know I'm being "that guy" again, but this is the very situation where religion is the most helpful.

I don't know if I will help in anyway... and I know a whole bunch of people will probably think i'm a stupid, ignorant teen...
But if you ask yourself why you take drugs, it's because you don't want to feel the pain--because you don't want to hurt and feel hopeless, right? But in the end, isn't the ignorance of what's hurting you the most wrecking in the end?
And also, you make TOTAL SENSE. Don't panic. And don't let all your hope of your life getting better disappear.
Try and see the good things in life--the small blots of light in the darkness--and continue to look forwards to the next fragments of light that you will see the next day, and the next.
One step at a time.