So for anyone who answered my last post, thank you so much. but things have changed. Happy left me. and i am honestly destroyed because it's my fault. i am just so immature and moody for him. he says it was his fault but i know it is mine. he said he was happy with me but the idea of being with me felt wrong to him. the things is i am too emotional and though he always seem happy, he never talks about how he feels, not once. even to me.
Days after we broke up, i was utterly destroyed and he walked around like nothing ever happened. imagine my anger. then, being the child i am, i started to be mean to him. i wanted him to feel the same way i felt. i trusted him. he told me that i deserved better than stupid and that he would treat me better than Idiot ever would have. It honestly felt like once i gave him what he wanted (oral sex, thats it), then he just left.
We fought alot. he was never one to show how he felt. and i was never one to control my emotions. even now i look back, i am ashamed of how i acted. i screamed at him and i even hit him. i have never felt horrible. all that pushed him away. though we act like friends, i am forgotten and pushed aside. he always seems so happy. i want to move on and forget about this pain. i want to not be weak and not show emotion.
Ok so first of all you abused him And some people never show there true emotions. I'm like this most of the time no one ever cares that I have feelings im the class clown and I'm the one that people think its Ok to call me names Now knowing this he probably is hiding his true emotions because he doesn't want to get his personal life involved.
Just like everyone says, move on from it. Like consider your feeling from an outside perspective and grow up. That's life and things won't change but you can try to.
I dont know about your post before this post, but i do know that you must move on. You cant move on, if you dont know what you truly want. Look at your heart without using your head.
