1 Name: TNT : 2016-01-24 12:16 ID:LS7z2m0v [Del]
I think my biggest problem is that not defend myself, or me, or anything that really matters . Whether attacking me physically or verbally me stay in shock , I was paralyzed and did not react , I feel really useless and people to know this my default all they do is attack more because ...
Who would not like to break more something that is already broken ?
I think that humans are like other animals "Big devours the weak and sickly " really try me out this stupid idea in my head, but have only come increasingly confirming situations ( family, friends, teachers ...)
I 'm not a very intelligent person , but I'm not stupid, I am nothing athletic , I'm not very attractive , but the people make me feel like shit, maybe I make a mistake , maybe it's me who does the wrong thing and not them ...
I say this because there has always been someone, or a person or a group of people ( since high school ) who have dedicated themselves have to make me feel like shit ...
one of my favorite animes say " Would you rather harm or be harmed ? " I honestly do not like any of the options but it seems that the world is governed by these rules ... is really depressing , and I feel bound, useless, and constantly discouraged.
Now everything seems ephemeral and meaningless , I am sad . I know people are idiots and can not help but still his saracasmo , giggle , paperwork ass , his punches , his kicks and his constant criticism all the time, constantly , it hurts , but when it is not another person is having to cut the wings without cause ...
I tried to speak , but they always laugh , I have complained to superiors and the result was disastrous ...
I wish I could shut his mouth and be able to defend myself, to look a little Izaya not do it for fun only for self-defense, but I can not , I'd take care of myself , but I can not and I feel useless ...
2 Name: Kaiyo : 2016-01-24 23:03 ID:ocvIox8E [Del]
Hello TNT I think there are many people on here who currently feel the way you do or have felt that way one time in their life. Bullying of any form is incredibly cruel and i do know how that feels. If i can give you any advice at all it would be to find a way to love yourself, accept your faults, and then when you feel strong enough stand up to those people that are hurting you. The way you feel is exactly what those bully's want you to feel because they dont want you to fight back. I think that if you find a way to defend yourself and tell them to leave you alone they will. You should probably go to a guidance counselor, family member, even the police and tell them what has been happening because it will help. I know its scary to go to someone and admit that your are being hurt but sometimes it can really help. there is this quote that i read and i really liked it so i will share it with you "your value doesn't decrease based on someones inability to see your worth." no matter how those people make you feel you are a person that matters and no one can take that away from you. you may not feel strong but you are and i know one day it will get better for you. everyone here in the dollars supports you. good luck and i am always here if you want to talk
~ Kaiyo
