So, first off, and a very important piece of information of this, I am a transgender, and although I was born male, I do not feel male. I feel female. I do not believe my body and mind were one. Now that that is out of the way, onto the real ranting.
Well, first off, I am still yet to leave high school. Second off, my family is not open minded. They see transgenders as freaks. Therefore I have not told them. I already get enough trash from them because of the music I like and dislike, and I do not want all of my self confidence to be destroyed because of them. This also proves to be a very serious obstacle in my life. It prevents me from truly being female. I have to continue to keep my male name, my male clothing, and many more things. It also prevents me from doing something I love to do. Cosplay. Although I haven't done much of it (Not many opportunities for it in Northern GA), the few times I had done it, I loved it. Only problem was because of the close minded nature of my family, I can only cosplay as male characters, and I hate that. There is a huge field of female characters I want to cosplay as, but I am prevented because of my fears. I wish I could do something about it, but no matter how hard I try, I cannot succeed. Well, that part was that part. On to the next topic. I never really feel I am ever treated they way I feel, even though I go along with everyone's crazy things and all of their nonsense and I listen to it. I don't give a shit about homestuck or tumblr or how they will come up with a new sexuality for themselves every few days, but I still respect them and on more than one occasion I have tried to take up a hobby they have or something, although usually they do not like the same things as me. I think I deserve respect as to the fact that I am a she, not a he, and I have explained this on multiple occasions, but it just seems everyone forgets in a matter of minutes. Some put up an effort, others don't. It is just... Hard. Now, before anyone begins to go on about how I am too young to make these decisions, I am going to say, this is not a decision, this is a feeling I have had for years, but I have only been able to realize it in entirety for the past two years, and I was only able to come out of the closet to most of my friends a few months ago. And please, no dumb, useless, "It'll all be better and you will be able to confess soon!" advice. That all is total bull shit. I want real fucking help, no nonsense. Even if I can't get help, I need to rant, and this is the best place to do it. If you read this, thanks for reading. It is nice to know that there are people that care enough to actually read rants about a person's life without getting cash from that person.

Man, fuck your family. You need to make the same decision I did when I opened my cafe. Which is more important to you: family members that would turn on you over something as trivial as gender or occupation, or something that you feel is integral to your very being? I chose the latter, and found that given time my family and friends learned to accept my decision, and that I was much happier without the few that didn't. Also, I offer you the opportunity to, when you are eighteen, and provided you are a decent cosplayer, come to wisconsin and work as a waitress at my cafe. A cosplay cafe.

Wow, thanks for the advice. First time I have gotten empathy from a person trying to give me advice for a very long time. And nice work on starting a cosplay cafe. Not everyone is bold enough to actually make such a large and unusual decision. Once again, thanks for the advice!

>>2 That, just sounds shady.

Sometimes, I think god fucked up some 10 or more years ago when putting the souls into the bodies, 'cause, you get so much transgender shit out there.

>>4
It's not shady, I'm a good cook and an anime fan. Now I do both as my job.

>>5 Yes, I know it isn't shady, but damn hell does it sound like it is.

>>2 I must move to Wisconsin. I live in the deep stereotypical south, even though I wasn't born here, and it sucks cause if I tried to open one of those, my place would be burned to the ground. I must move there and work with you friend.

Also... >>1 I had a friend in your position. Here's what they did. They just told themself that it is only temporary and that they can wait to tell people until they are safe from their family. All you need to do is hold on a few years if you can and try to distance yourself in the meantime. Hope this helps.

Does it really matter whether people refer to you as "he" or "she"? Does their opinion impede you in any way? You make your own choices- that's life. A hypersensitivity to criticism, be it of your lifestyle, your musical preferences, or whatever, convinces others that you are weak in character. If you can't bring yourself to just ignore them nothing will ever change.

>>4 More likely, a combination of bad parenting, a propaganda-centered education model, a movement of "churches" that started making shit up instead of actually being churches, the birth of internet trolling and indirect harassment, and piles of other modernist shit fucked up the lives and mindsets of half a generation.

>>1 I've actually known two people in your position, the first friend's family thought they were trying to be an attention whore, and claimed she paid her therapist to agree with her on how she was accidentally born male instead of female. The other friend is going to go through the navy to get an education that'll probably get them a great job in the next few years, so that they can become female.

I can't give any real advice, but I can say that I hope in the near future that you'll be able to be yourself and not what everyone around you wants you to be.

>>11 Not to be an ass, but "accidentally"? What, like 'Oops. He was supposed to be a girl. Should've held it in a few more seconds.'? You don't pick your own gender before your birth, so you aren't "accidentally" born the way you are.