i try not to let it bother me but i have no friends at school. today, before i even realized- i was sitting at lunch (alone lol) and crying. its.....not fun. its hard- everything seems to just be hard. my life isn't enjoyable. outside of school i have nothing going for me. i don't have anybody at school or outside of school (i don't really even have family either). im not talented or funny or-- interesting. im a boring person. im a worthless person. im useless. im a waste of space. is there even a reason to go on?? my life is a waste. i don't like living. i don't see a reason to keep living??
i feel like a waste.
i think if i had friends, or at least someone to lean on, i would be ok. i wish i was able to do something at least- i can't draw, or sing, or dance, or write, oR DO ANYTHING well. the only thing im semi decent at is school- and i don't like wasting my life away just studying, its not interesting or something people besides teachers and educators. i also don't have any interests (depression hit me hard during a time where i guess i should've been forming my personality, so now im like an empty void). i don't think i should move on?? im starting to think i should've left myself in 2015
im sorry for this i just-- i really needed to ran. im tired of pretending everything is ok.

also um. id appreciate if you didn't say anything like "if no one cares why are you posting" or "if you want to die just go die" like--?? ?? im just here to rant. if you have something like advice idk??? go ahead but i just really needed to get what i was thinking out. im sorry

Hey, I went through something similar recently and my advice is don't give up. You say you are not interesting but everyone is interesting in their own way and someone will notice it. Maybe you could take the first step by noticing people around you and trying to approach the ones you're drawn to. I know my words will probably make no difference to you but I want you to know that I'm sorry you had to feel this way and as hard as it may seem, it will pass.

Hey man, I don't know you but I feel you are actually way more interesting than you think. If you want somebody to talk to, please message me on kik, my pseudonym is the same as here ^^

Most people are either more down on themselves more than on others, or down on everyone except themselves. Neither are good to be, but we are humans and we all have problems with our minds. Being down on yourself is difficult, but if you talk to anyone that knows you they will most likely think highly of you in some way. Even if you haven't yet found it you are good at something. You say you are good at school but don't want to devote your life to studying, but focus on a subject you are good at that you enjoy, and expound on that. Being good at school doesn't mean you have to study schoolwork all the time, it means you can find what you are best at and move in that direction. If you are good at math for example, and enjoy it, you could do puzzles, build a robot, program something, the possibilities are endless! All of school is there so you can learn and build upon what you are good at and enjoy. As a person, you are your own worst critic. If you make something, and don't think it looks good it is probably you being overly judgmental of yourself. Try asking someone you trust how you did, and build from there. If your hobby you discover ends up like mine and costs a lot (I make canes and larp weapons for fun) try selling your created products and make money while you are at it! Try larp if you don't like these other ideas, you can find many people who want to try it and they can be potential customers for your weapons if you decide to make them! There are endless possibilities, so search the world around you for something you can do.

Get an unhealthy obsession like anime. It will make you feel like you have something to live for.

Source: having no life.

>>6

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fuPU2EYqXbo

Try working out if you can. It really helps boost yourself esteem. When I didn't make any of school teams, I was really depressed for a while. I felt like people looked at me like I was lower than them. But working out, even if it was by myself, helped me realize I can't change what other people think of me, and I can only change myself.

Feel free to rant then, Rant as much as you like, we are here to listen and help~ Unlike a lot of other forms, The purpose of the dollars is to help others, so if ranting makes you feel better, the feel free to do so. Everyone is unknown here, even if you blurt out your problems, no one will judge you, but instead help you, because we don't know you, but we are willing to become your friend suu~~

If you need a shoulder to lean on, then I'm sorry that I can't fly over to where ever you are, but Im still here, and I will try to help the best I can, please, feel free to contact me at Lapis.dollars@gamil.com if you ever just need a friend, or just someone to rant to, even if you just want to chat, I'm free to do so :)

Because the world is not as bad as it seams suu~~ Live~~

>>2 LOL

Well, don't let it bother you, until you get bothered by it