I feel like just about everything around me is fucking exploding. Fuck. I just feel... Dead to the world. No one really seems like they actually care anymore. Everywhere I go, I can never feel any empathy from anyone. I can only feel pity. I can usually just find refuge in games, but I just feel as if there is a big, gaping hole in me where Mabinogi was. Even when I try and search for forgiveness in the things I have wronged, all I am met with is hate. More and more fucking hate. Honestly, I feel as if the name Layfonsin is just a term associated with ignorance and bitchiness. It is real fucking horrible. I can't even find bliss in rock music, which is where I have gone when I feel this feeling in the past. I honestly feel as if every-fucking-thing is exploding. I just need any advice. And please, none of that "It'll pass over, it'll all be fine" shit. I want real, genuine, fucking advice. I am not looking for any mindless pity. I posted this because I am looking for some empathy. Someone who can help. I really want someone I can actually talk to. Someone who won't go on about how much they hate Marilyn Manson every few minutes. I just want something. I just want something I can never have. Kudos to anyone who found a song reference in there, by the way.

Since you seem to be feeling down, I'm just gonna lay it out there. Might make you feel even more down, so ignore it if you must.

First of all. The world doesn't care about any individual. We were all raised thinking that it does, but it actually doesn't. The ones that care are limited to a few friends and families, or even some ocassional strangers, but they're few in numbers. Following that thought, empathy is not really something you can just give out like compassion or affection. We're all self-absorbed. Most people don't have the capacity to understand others.

That's fine, though, since we can't even understand ourselves. The most important thing in relationships is not to completely understand one another but to keep trying to do so. What you received from other people is most likely not hate. It's frustration. The more you expect empathy out of people, the more they become frustrated when they can't do it.

I have to second >>2.

'Tis a sad, and harsh truth.

Fucking thank you. Not the advice I wanted, but it is wanted I needed.

>>1 Half way reading through your thread, I googled "Layfonsin" to see the definition, nothing of relevance popped up :(

You're in luck, because you came to the right place. Half of us give normal advice like >>2, I generally talk shit to everyone, and the rest lurk. HAVE FUN :D

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Aw, but I love your shit-talking pie pie~
*imagining a tsundere big bro*

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