I want to die. My partner and I both want to die. I need something to keep me from doing this. I've tried to list out my goals, surround myself with things that make me happy, think of my responsibilities (which actually only makes things worse to be honest). I despise the idea of looking for help because where I grew up it was only the weak that ever needed help, but this is getting a bit out of hand, and I feel like I'm hurting my significant other as well. I don't want to be the thing that pushes her over the edge so she finally offs her self, but I know that I'm ready to die. I want it to stop hurting. I want to stop hurting her. I just feel so weak and defenseless. Can anyone else relate or help me with this? I'm in so much pain physically and mentally.

I know its hard and scary to get help, and you probably don't want any medicine, i don't know how much i can help, but ill try because you don't deserve to die.
i personally hate drugs, but they are god for some things. my friend was really depressed and was cutting herself all the time. she started smoking cannabis and after a few weeks she was fine, no more cuts or suicide thoughts. maybe theres a drug (allege or not) to help you out wherever you are.
And seeking help is still an option. it may be scary and some people might look down on you but help can HELP you.

I know some wonderful herbal treatments and could direct you to some online, free therapists if you'd like?
You're not weak for needing help dearie, my brain can't live without my blood!
If anything else, have patience. It's truly a wonderful virtue to have and utilize. I believe you have the strength to persevere! Someone who cares about their partner like that can't be put down easily

Please don't do illegal drugs. That will just add stress to your life. I see no problem with legal drugs, but keep in mind the side-effects.

I agree that it would be best not to get professional help unless you think everything is going downhill faster (as a diagnosis would be on your permanent record), but please don't let that last bit of info steer you away from it if you think it really would help.

As for things you can do right now:
- Do you have any siblings? If so, live for them so that they have that much less pain in their life (or you could phrase it as that much more happiness).
- Are you often curious? If so, you really should try to live out your whole natural life so that you don't miss out on anything (try brainstorming awesome things that might happen in the future).
- Do you like arguing or are you good at arguing? If so, get into an argument with someone (preferably forgiving) about this topic so that you can essentially trick yourself into making your best possible argument against suicide.
- The "part of a whole" mentality might seem to be a source of hopelessness at first, but just imagine if all of the bees in a hive just wandered off. The whole group would collapse. In other words: every person counts, including you!
- Maybe make a blog. Or something else where people come to rely on you for something. It would be best if you could communicate with them in some way. That way you have something you hopefully enjoy keeping you tied in with the rest of the world, like you're weaving a safety net.

I can't relate to this at all, so this is all just trial and error. I hope at least one of these suggestions works for you, but if they don't please let me know. I can probably come up with more (although if you would really rather I didn't, please tell me that as well. no offense will be taken).

I wish you and your significant other luck in figuring this out and in your lives after that!

I can't experience how much pain you are in, but how about the people who care about you. I bet their is a handful of people who would want to help and a bet that the same group of people would be sad if you die. You may be hurting them more than you are hurting. I know it's hard to think straight when you are hurting, but consider everyone and everything.

I just want to say that I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I recently volunteered at a Walk to Prevent Suicide, so I am feeling pretty passionate about this as of now.

Coping with life is different for everyone, and I'm afraid to say that, even though I have been through extreme lows in my life, I have never been through severe depression or suicidal thoughts.

However, I would still like to share with you this fact: At the walk that I was volunteering at, there were hundreds of people there. Hundreds of people who care about anyone going through suicidal thoughts, and many many people who support you, without you even having to share your name!

As for any advice on helping you cope with this, I can offer this much:
*Practice saying something good about any little thing you can find. For example, if someone is smiling, make a mental note to yourself about them having a pretty smile. If you see a flower, comment on how lovely it is, or something you like about it. If you enjoy sightseeing, take a deep breath and enjoy the view of the sky, and remind yourself how never-ending it is.
*If you are not allergic, get a pet. Any kind of pet will do as long as you can take care of it and provide it with all of the care it needs.
*Try writing. Yes, I know a lot of people may say this, but it helps. Write about how you're feeling now, put every bit of negativity on the paper, then destroy the note. Think of this as a sort of metaphor for fighting back against the negativity. When you are done, write about something good that happened that day. Any little thing will do. Even something as small as, "I walked into my house without tripping and landing on my face." You'll notice that over time, these good notes start improving. Keep these notes, and perhaps read them aloud with your partner. You can even listen to music while you write, if that helps.
*Lastly, try doing all of these things with your partner. While there are thousands of people who can support you over the internet, sometimes in-person support helps better. Connection is a big part in fighting against suicide, and connecting becomes much easier when you start working together as a team.

I hope you take this advice to heart, and I hope to see you improve.

With love and support, Miss Universe.

maybe find a new reasin to live however simple it may be..
might be something as stupid as "i wish to see the end of one piece" or something passonate like "i will give my significant other the best life they ever wish for" and whatever happens dont consider death. maybe move into a new country with your partner to start a new life .
i am not really good with this stuff so yeah that is what keeps me going find a new reason to ive even if it is silly

Im the aforementioned partner to Elias, and I wanted to add that 1. we aren't able to/want to get into any drugs. Both of our lives are kinda spiraling down and especially my life has taken a turn future-wise. We're looking for like....a purpose, or ways to distract ourselves, or how to help us focus in school (which we are doing horrible at in AP classes)

If it's school, I can provide this much advice;
*Involve yourself in a study group. If you want to start one, observe the others in your class, then recruit those you find who also struggle. Split the work evenly, and copy the work from each other later. It saves time and stress.
*Make sure you take time to do your homework. I know it can be difficult to find the time or motivation, especially if it's a difficult class, but it is essential to your success in school. If it helps, you can create a physical schedule for yourselves. Write it down on paper and hang it up to remind yourselves.
*When you are done with an assignment, treat yourself to half an hour of something that makes you happy. Be it some food, video games, tv show, reading, whatever. This teaches your brain that doing homework is a rewarding task. By performing a job, you are rewarded.

I hope this advice helps.

With love and support, Miss Universe.