so i live in a foster family. and i have a clear reason for it. i have been bullied by almost everyone in my class, i remember once when a student wanted me to die so that i would never bother him again. i was so alone and at home it was even worse. i was raped by my father and i could not tell my mother about this because she is mentally handicapped and on top of that, a foreigner and i was not allowed to learn her language. my father took pitchers of me naked and we have proof for that. i moved into a foster family when i was 9 and i am 17 years old now. my father is dead, but my mother is still alive and still believe everything he ever said to her. so i feel like i should tell her the truth, she deserves to hear it. she deserves to know what happened to her own daughter. so i´m going to meet her soon. hopefully, and i want to tell her about this. but it will be hard. i know she will cry, and that will not be easy to see..

>>1 What does your mother have? depending on that you should choose your words more carefully but you're right she deserves to know, even if it's just part of it. I would recommend you seek a psychologist for yourself things like this are very hard to do on your own.

my mother she has a understanding handicap. so it´s kinda like harder for her to understand things. and i have been to a psychologist. trust me, i have. and i am feeling better now :) but it´s just that i can´t stand watching people cry... i know that this will be hard. but i have people around me that will support me when i get back home and i know that i will have a shoulder to cry on. i´ll be alright but it
ain´t gonna be easy!

Spoken like a warrior! as long as you are alive and in good company everything is going to be fine. Time heals all wounds, Experience erases every scar.

I hope everything will be okay for you and your mother.
good luck.