My anxiety's gotten me again. Damn them, damn it... every time I set aside time later, they only remind me that it has to be done earlier when it doesn't, I break down every time. I hope they notice my frequent growling at them behind their backs, I hope they notice I'm not incompetent...

I even tell them about it. They don't give a damn or think it's an issue. I'm making this short so I have the patience to post this, strength or drive, per se. Forgive me for rambling. Maybe this'll be bumped off, that's okay.

What's your problem exacly ?

You're too anxious or you're procrastinating ?

Sorry. Anxiety's getting in the way of me having the drive to do anything, I tell my family this, and it's not even a problem to them. I can't even write without them interrupting me and giving me more anxiety.

Then do some sport, it'll evacuate your anxiety and that's a good reason not to be with your familly for a few hours per week.

Running is a great sport to get rid of stress, and you don't need particular stuff to do that.

Cycling is great to head off your home. A basically trained road rider is able to do at least 25kms to find a quiet place to read, for exemple.

Swimming trains all of your body, and it allows you to rumble in your thoughts.

Until going to college, I practiced triathlon, which is the combination of the three sports.

Check out the sport section, or look for clubs near your home.
But if you choose a team sport, don't go in a big club: they will never let you play.

I agree sports is the best way to go
I do boxing it so releases tensions and stress