I'm usually a happy person towards my brother and mom, but not always. I usually stay away from the outside world, I avoid people outside of my family (sometimes my family), and I don't enjoy talking or forcing myself to listen to someone talk.. My mom asked me earlier if I was depressed since I avoid everyone and don't want to go anywhere because of people. I don't think i'm 'depressed' it's just .. im not sure. I'll have dreams about everyday life and the simple things make me the angriest. I daydream about beating people who irritate me and I'm not even sure why. I'm not typically a violent person but this has been going on for a year or so. I'm afraid that I'll actually do these things, I have to clench my fists or sit on my hands when I'm angry because of the daydreams and thoughts. If I tell my mom, I'm scared she'll send me away or become angry with me. I've told her about 2 years ago that I was having bad thoughts and she sent me to a church.. a church. "Pray the devil out of you". It was ridiculous. Can anyone give me advice or words of help.

First so I can clarify something, how old are you? Because this could be hormones messing with you. But it is normal, just have to keep yourself in check, self-control. Maybe find a hobby or something to do that gets the anger out, maybe like a hard game, or work out. Go out and run those thoughts away. Look up some trails that are beautiful and run down them. I'm sorry you are going through these thoughts of violence, it sometimes is just the sad part of life that surrounds us.