1 Name: Shinitai : 2015-10-29 18:24 ID:QxYZhJMk [Del]
I often hear from the news how such young bright people get killed. And it's so sad. For example, not long ago, a girl who was incredible smart and bright had just entered university and was struck by lightning and died. A few days ago, another innocent person was accidentally killed from a car accident and was hit by a train.
Now I'm gonna sound selfish ...but it's so sad how people who have such a great future get killed in the worst ways possible, yet I'm here. A failure in life yet still alive when those who want and deserve to live don't get the chance.
I'm told to take this chance of life and make the best out of it, but in a way, I feel 'cursed' cus I can't. And my mother is keeping an eye on me just in case she expects me to commit suicide or something.
I can't help but feel depressed and jealous.
Why do the wrong people get to die?
2 Name: Hiroki : 2015-10-29 18:51 ID:Bdgsj6wI [Del]
You have a post traumatic stress disorder after watching the news... ^^
(or some kind of survivor guilt, but it is now considered as a symptom of PTSD)
You need to see a doctor for Irak veterans, I guess...
3 Name: Hiroki : 2015-10-29 18:56 ID:Bdgsj6wI [Del]
Everyone can die, but the more kind or bright the dead guy is, the more dramatically striking is the news for ourselves.
4 Name: Shinitai : 2015-10-29 20:56 ID:QxYZhJMk [Del]
It's more like even before watching the news, I already thought this way of "why do I not get to die?"
"Why can everybody die besides me"
It's not post traumatic..I'm not depressed for them, I'm more depressed for myself( I know I'm being rlly selfish but that's technically the issue atm) ...I'm just jealous (the type of jealous when somebody has something that u don't hav like the newest iPhone for ex or etc etc) <- that kind of jealousy
Let me rephrase: So I already think this way and when I see them die, I just go "well why not me too?"
5 Name: Shinitai : 2015-10-29 21:00 ID:QxYZhJMk [Del]
I don't know if I make sense or not...I can't rlly phrase it properly
I'm not saddened by the news. I'm just jealous how ppl like them get to die but I don't. (And like I said before, my mom won't let me die)
Yea I sound rlly mean..but I'm being honest with my issue srry~
...and i probably sound more confusing ...
6 Name: Catanomical : 2015-10-29 21:33 ID:loHn4rft [Del]
Shinitai,I don't believe in god, just gonna flat out say it. But I think still we all have a purpose to serve. It being just to make this one persons day happy and stop them from doing something rash, or to save lives and help people in other ways. What it comes down to is actually looking for that road. Don't be jealous because you have something ahead of you. Things happen in this life for sometimes no reason, or for a reason. It just sometimes seems like chance. You shouldn't want to die, not because it is wrong or because it is what society views as a improper way to think. You shouldn't want to die because the real deal is to just face the music. Help the world become better, that is why you are here aren't you?
