I just wanna rant feel free to move on.

I'm 18 can't find a job and outta highschool. I have gone nuts through bordom and having no purpose. Because I have no job I have no source of income. I have scrounged around the house while still looking for employment to save money. After 3 years of saving I have 40 dollars in dimes and pennies. My grandmother a wriklely pathetic child constantly complains wakes me up in the middle of the night to assist with the simplest tasks such ass turning on a kitchen light when all her problems are due to her never listening and killing herself with never taking care of her health. My mom and grandma constantly smoke and my grandmother not only steals cigarettes but asks me for money for cigarettes. We live in the country which is a hell on its own I grew up in new Jersey now in Alabama where I have been dealing with lazy teens fucking and getting high because they have nothing left to do. I have developed a complex due to kids teasing me for smelling like cigarettes. Even though I try to wash it out but it gets everywhere because each of them smoke a carton a day. Ive often dreamt of my grandmother dead. We are poor. Still trying to save for college. And I have romance issues where I have leftover feelings for my best friends while being in what I believe to be in love with a girl who is long distance we have an odd sexting text date relationship. She dates other guys but not looking for anything serious right now.

That case might be too complex for us (where does your money comes from if you don't work ?)

You could maybe go to your former high school's counsellor ?

>>1 Do you hate your life?

>>1 I look for money people dropped in the street or on floors.
>>3 slightly but I'll work things out in silence until I can move. Thanks for both of your concern. I'm just trying to vent and get my emotions out there into reality. Like people who write angry letters but never send them.

Oh,Ok >>4 your welcome to express your feeling to the full extent :)

Are you gifted for some manual work ?
Idk, you can craft something like wooden kitties or cookies and sell it on the internet or at a local shop.

Also, I'd like to ask to my teachers if being volunteer in an association can't help you to find paid job. At least you'd spend time out of your home.

In,sorry about your situation.In actually in that sort of state as well,but I wish you the best of luck.I really hope you feel better as well as your family.

you haven't mentioned it but their is always work going somewhere (trust me im 19 ive been looking for 6 years and only getting interviews with no follow up)

never give up though, the moment you give up and stop looking for work is the moment you become complacent with idleness even if it means Slaving away in a factory- if it pays the bills then its alright
a friend of mine is going through something similar in his gap year, just by being friendly and open to the interviewers he managed to get a job on a production line- his pay is decent and although boring he is alright with the easy but dull work.

you live in the country but what do you class as country? here in the UK even Country areas have a factory or three and if you can find work in a City the pay you earn can also fund the travel cost if close enough to a suburban area or place of work.

/saged