I don't even know how to complain so Ima just put this on the table in a factual manner.

1. I live in a poor family. We get buy so it's not terrible.
2. My mom had me at a young age is is definitely not healthy in the head.
3. Our family is very rural and believes you put family above all else.
4. We live in a old house with 4 cats and 6 dogs. They are not trained so the house is often strewn in fecal matter and various foul elements. The Bathroom has a mold problem that everyone still ignores even though I drive them crazy. My job in the house is to keep the kitchen clean, and even though I often don't have time to do dishes, I keep it clean on a humanitary level and well organized. (Dishes are scraped and rinsed, no foul elements in kitchen) My older and younger brother however don't keep the minimum level, I moved my room upstairs (No heat or cooling ) simply because the living and dining room are always covered in fecal matter, the floors stained.
5. I tried to leave once and my aunts, grandmother, and nuclear family treated me as an ungreatful child and my mom has been tense around me ever sense.
6. My mom seems to think that yelling and crying at me about how I show them no love is the way to fix this.
7. My mom often will pin my brothers and aunts on me if I become to much of a problem.
8. When I reached out on facebook for help, she forced me to remove the post and proceeded to enforce statement 6 & 7.
9. My brothers and aunt bought me tampons and maxipads in light of my recent "Emotional" activity. I am a boy so this both made the situation worse and drew myself to doubt my masculinity.
10. I am suicidal and its becoming increasingly hard to take school seriously, I want to go to college and get great grades but I have a growing sense of apathy as I realize how shitty my situation is.
11. I am experiencing stomach pains, and other bodily pains for no reason. I think this is my way of dealing with emotions I don't understand.
12. I want to get help. but I also want to just disappear. Word of encouragement dont help.. I can not just "keep my chin up" or "Look for the light at the end of the tunnel"
13. I want to change the world in a way that it won't ever forget.. But that is nothing but a dream if I can be sure I won't hang myself tomorrow.

I am out of options. And am reaching out here only because a small flame of myself tells me that it might save me.

Hey there, sorry to hear that your life isn't doing great at the moment.

The thing the most bothered me was:
"3. Our family is very rural and believes you put family above all else."
That makes think why they would treat you so badly? That isn't right.
What also makes me wonder how your mother doesn't care that the house isn't in a good shape like feces everywhere or scraped dishes...and it's actually dangerous for your health.
Your brothers and aunt are serisously immature and sorry to say it but also very stupid, I would just ignore them and threw the tampons away.
If you are in highschool how long do you need till you graduate? Because if you go to college you can move away from your home and make an excuse like: "The college is far away and if I take a public transport it will cost me too much." and hopefully become indepented.
Or do you have a friend and you can tell him/her about it so you can stay at their place for a few days or something and then you can concentrate on your school for a while.

I feel so sorry for your situation. I can't imagine how you live there. As for the stomach pains, I think it's because of stress. It's better if you go and do a check up, hopefully it's nothing serious. And it's alright if you want to chase your dream :) if you always make a small step that helps to achieve your dream, then just never stop^^.

If you want to talk about it or need help you can write to me. here is my mail: eccochem01@gmail.com

I'm really sorry that your life is like that. If you want my help contact me at
lr.spirit.2001@gmail.com I'll try to help anyway I can. I hope your life gets better soon.

I can't imagine living in that kind of situation. I live with 2 cats myself and they make messes alot, but nothing like that. I agree with @eccochem, the pains are probably from stress. Maybe try to cut your mom just a little slack? If she had you at a young age, life is probably really tough on her as well. Try to talk things out with your family and see if you can come up with a plan. I wish you the best of luck in the future and I hope things get better for you very soon.