I have been feeling really beat these past two weaks. Probably, I have been put in such a state for a longer while, but even if I did I can't quite remeber. I have lost the track of time in some regards. Apart from that - the shallow feeling of emptiness, as if something I should have has been misplaced. Like a watch, that you have left somewhere, but you don't know that you did, only that something is off. These feelings really worry me, because everything is fine. I should feel okay... but I don't. I wanted to repress those feelings but I only turned out even sadder and more bitter, so I dropped that. Why am I writing all this again?

Ah, right. I bet this sounds retarted and out of place but could anyone... write to me? I don't even know what would that yeld me, but I guess that would be nice or something... I mean, you don't have to. Actually, nobody has to do anything... Eugh...

Idk exactly what to tell you, but I'm down to talk if it helps in any way.

I mean... I don't really know. Just talk to me. About anything. My head is so blank I really would apreciate a thought or two coming from somebody else.

What kind of food do you like to eat? Maybe I can share recipes and such with you. I find that when I'm sad cooking cheers me up.

Macaronies~
Seriously, I LOVE pastas in any form.

There is so much you can do with past noodles. I like the with alfredo and scallops. The tiny scallops.

I love making penne fried with eggs, cheese, veggies and other, more season additions!

Also, Japanese style pasta is super delicious :)

Your penne sounds delicious.

I mean... it is. It really is :>
Although I never really seen anyone make pasta with eggs.

It's not exactly pasta, but I drain the water out of my ramen and put a raw egg in. It sounds gross but is actually really tasty.

Naw, why gross? I could call hardly anything "gross"...
Never done any ramen. Apart from insta noodles. Which I vowed not to eat anymore. Yeah...

I eat some pretty out there foods, raw stuff is pretty tasty to me.

RAW MEAT, YEEEEEEH! *insert a lot of para australian slurs packed with the word "Bro/brah" in and there*
Not really raw. Tatar is delicious. And salted meat. And maturing meat, especially fuet. What else can you eat raw? Veggies, fruit, wood...

Fish fish and more fish! I also hunt because there's some good meats you just can't get at grocery stores.

I could not live without fishes and seafood. I want to cook some paella this week.

...it's going late ;-;

Yeah, I'm actually preparing seafood gumbo now :)

Mnh, now I crave for seafood! Thanks!

Sowwy, I think I am going to nap. Thanks for reminding me of my body's need for eating though. I forget sometimes, ehehehee...
Good night~!

Sleep well.

Thank youuu.
I mean, I would stay with you but it's monday and 3am right this intant. Anyway, toodles!

No problem dude, I'm just happy to help out. Feel free to speak on anything I post you're my new dollars buddy and since you need a chat I got plenty :)

Hey, wanna still talk?
What's up?
Do you play any instrument btw? Playing an instrument is what eases me a lot tbh. I love my flute!

Of course I do! Conversing is one of the things I genuinely like...
Yeah, I just so happen to be a musician~! I play... I played clarinet. Also piano and singing. I was out from practice for a year now, but I just need a dear person that would kick me in the butt and tell me to go play again. I really liked it...

Owhh, everyone's so talented~
I can only play the viola~ (you probably haven't heard of it though~)

Hey guys just saw the convo, since I'm on break I thought I'd join. I play decent guitar and am practicing harmonica. I'm googling viola now.

:| I can't help but read this and just wonder what you're doing... "Why am I writing this again?" What, you can't read, or think straight now, or are you just trying to be odd, especially since even if you did forget what you were writing, why would you type it? and when you did remember, why would you leave it as the end of that paragraph? I literally can't help but just think this is a stupid way of trying to sound worse situation than what you are.

You are insulting my musical education, Cha :3
I really need to go back to reheaesals and active practice. It's just too good to miss on.
As for you, Hidden... Yup, I am just a totty dumb-dumb. Mea maxima culpa. I tend to write archaic compositions when I feel down, just a retarted thing I do. Especially in the middle of the night. Also, I think I subconciously stylized it to a speech form. Heh...
I am sorry if I insulted you or your sense of taste in any way~
Anyhow, how do you like your tea?

I don't know.

O-Obama-sensei!?
Why are you so mean?
;-;

I hope your feeling better now, we are here for you! :)

Wow. What happened here. Hahaha we were talking bout instruments right?

I like my tea chinese~
And pardon my ignorance, but 'archaic compositions'? Old - styled composition? What does it mean? O.O

I had a dream where one of my counsellors at school brought their girlfriend to brunch at my elementary school, which had an old Chinese shop as it's cafeteria. They were eating popsicles and kept staring at me as if I were intruding.
I told this to my counsellor and he just laughed. We have a nice relationship